God Is In Control!

Today, my boss dropped a bombshell of sorts on me.  He's decided to transfer me to a different department.  Back to the one I started in- until he can figure out where to put me in the company. 

You see, I woke up Sunday morning with blood clots in my nose and mouth and called in sick on Monday and Tuesday.  Tuesday, my co-worker unintentionally did something that sent my pulse racing and I wrote an email to my boss because it was the last straw for me.  I should have waited to send the email until I was not so upset but I sort of figured I'd lose my nerve. 

I basically told him that things had to change or I'd go to the hospital and have them put me on disability until I could find another job.  I had just had all I could take.  He lets my co-worker do whatever she wants and come and go when she wants and pays her three times what I'm being paid but I'm doing almost all the work.  I've spent eight months trying to computerize the department and I've worked so hard to organize the files and try to get things running more smoothly and now I'm out and she stays and she plans to go back to her old system without organization.

Part of me feels like I've been kicked in the gut but part of me is relieved because I won't have to deal with all the aggravation of getting no appreciation or decent pay for what I do.  I am going to be getting a raise but it's as if I'm only getting it because I've been there a year and not for all my hard work and I don't think it's right.  The hours will be better in the sense that I won't have to get up early and will have time to get some things done before work.

I'll also have more time to work on my own business and once my raise goes through, I'll be able to quit my other job so I'll have two days off instead of one.  I'm just ready to have my business off the ground so I don't have to work for other people.  I'm so tired of working for people who take advantage of me.

Anyway, I was really frustrated until I heard the words in my spirit - God is in control.  I'm not sure what God has in mind but hearing those words gives me peace.  And, maybe my story will help remind you that God is in control no matter what life has thrown at you. 

I called for prayer when I got home earlier and the prayer partner reminded me that my steps are ordered of the Lord so maybe there is some need for me to be back where I was briefly.  I'm just going to trust Him and walk through this with His hand of grace on me and His mercy to give me strength.