Lifes toughest questions and thoughts

have you ever sat down and thought why things happen the way they happen

why friends slip away that you thought would be there forever.. why you have trouble trusting.. why you have trouble fighting for what you believe in.. because everyone around you seems to disagree with you...

well I recently let myslef just go.. i felt like i had no one.. no one that would listen no one that cares about what i care about.. the way i feel about issues.. Do i always have to believe what others believe.. why is my way the wrong way.. Sure i have chloe but she is 2 she doesnt understand whats wrong with mama.. but she does know something is wrong... she is the rock that keeps me going.. but belive me she is the only thing that keeps me going..

i seriously feel like no one truly cares about me that im just the person they have to put up with... or to them im selfish or disrespectful they only try to find the bad in me and not the good.. i have alot of good in me.. but right now its not showing because there is a darkness keeping my hapiness locked up..

I just want to know that there is someone out there that actually cares.... that will listen..

Comments: 9

Jan S. Oct 21, 2008, 2:08am EDT

I care, Julia. I'm glad you have Chloe. Having a child made me want to become the best person I could be and the best mother. She didn't know that I was unsure as a mother. She loved me because I fed her and rocked her, then later played with her. My life was focused on loving her and making her happy. In doing so, my self-esteem increased and I began to love myself more.

Chloe thinks you are the most wonderful person in the world, Julia. Try to be that person.
Do it for both of you. Check out this link: http://samanthaslifeandtimes.com/inmydaughterseyes.html

God bless you. He will, you know, because He loves you always.

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Janet "Jax" B. Oct 21, 2008, 12:44pm EDT

It's difficult sometimes Julia...and I think we all have times in our life that we feel that way.

Jan is right...God loves you and always will.

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CyberGwen ! Oct 21, 2008, 2:14pm EDT

Julia, we care!

I have times like this too where I feel like I am all alone. I tell myself that it won't last forever and try to find the joy in simple things. You have Chloe, so I bet that just seeing her smile brightens your day:)

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Danielle P. Oct 22, 2008, 5:33am EDT

I definitely care!! I've been wondering where you've been. It is wonderful that you have Chloe to keep you going. Whatever works is awesome!! She's so lucky to have a mom that loves her as much as you do. Hugs to you!!

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Monica H. Oct 22, 2008, 5:01pm EDT

I care about you Julia. Also, just in case you didn't know it..............there is a GOD up there that loves you unconditionally and you are perfect in his eyes. You are his gift. Maybe you can ask him to help you. Keep reaching out to people and the ones that lift you up in your best light are your true friends honey. I hope you will have a day filled with a little sunshine really soon.

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sharon SugarMomma is a wise woman, Oct 22, 2008, 5:06pm EDT

Julia - Learn to love yourself. You are unique and beautiful. You are the mother of a marvelous child.

Your path has just started hun, pick up the pace, go out and meet the world with your head up high.

You don't need anyone's approval. You are just fine the way you are, but you'll allow yourself to grow and love.

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Ellen C. Oct 23, 2008, 10:58pm EDT

I have felt like this before and not that long ago. Sometimes in life - it is what it is. Thank God for the small windows into our blessings, they keep us around long enough for our perspective to change. I care my friend, I care. I don't wish this kind of suffering on anyone.

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Stacey (Jesus is coming soon! ) U. Nov 19, 2008, 5:53pm EST

There are lots of people on Gather who care. Even more so, Jesus cares.

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kendra s. Dec 22, 2008, 3:27am EST

I too feel like you do. I am seven months pregnant and the babies father is not around. I have lost friends that I thought I was close to. I am 20 years old and trying to do this on my own. I have lots of people looking down on me and being negative towards my situation. You are not alone.

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