Thoughts on Life

People rarely ever seem too open naturally....

 What is it we are trying to hide? From who? Do you ever push your feelings and thoughts deep down and pretend they do not exist? I have done this all too often. A good friend once told me that being guarded can often end up hurting you more than being open.   

I have made it my goal this year and all others for that matter to be open and honest with myself and others. If you are upset with some one over something small - try to find a way to tell them. For keeping it on the inside could lead to a blow up later on- when it is least expected.

My heart is glad when he is near

It beats so fast he must hear

A simple touch and my mind is a drift

never again did I think love could find me

then you did

life is funny and oh so sweet

Why didn't I know you were so much more

even more than what I could see

confident yet self critical

pompous yet empathetic

callous but soft within

my blood flows like a rushing river

as my heart beats for you now

when you hold me in your arms

the world disappears

my mind is free

as am I

Who knew love would find me again?

but mostly- I found a new friend

if my life should end tomorrow

at least my heart is no longer black

and dead

The ash that remained after the last

is carried off on the Autumn winds

and given me new existence

peace dwells in the eyes of another

if ever one can view it  

like a school girl

whenever he comes close

my stomach flutters ,

my face will blush

his kindness has soothed my broken heart

and made me believe in happiness once more