Hello, it's been awhile...

Hi everyone :)

I've so missed this place. I have some access every couple of weeks at the library, but I feel I need more than an hour to be here--I'm SO behind!

Well, am still settling in with my folks...as in getting rid of life as we'd known. Hard to go from a 4-bedroom house, to having a room for my girls to share, and a small cubby for storage(I sleep wherever I can, in the livingroom usually). It's hard, but necessary. My oldest brother lent us his trailer(it looks like a modern covered wagon), so I've been able to take it slower; sometimes that also makes it worse, but I'll live.

Had to put off back surgery yet again--my leg has been going out almost constantly and if I tried the surgery without fixing my leg, I could really screw things up. I'm thinking I've gotten either quite klutzy in my not so old age, or have something horribly wrong with my muscles/tendons/bones--you know, fun stuff. I'm going for the klutzy thing. :) I say that, cuz I'd fallen(a stupid thing, really--more embarrassing than anything; just makes me really talented there)and ended up having surgery for my thumb! but it didn't heal whatever else was wrong, and have been having cortizone shots in my shoulder, and more pain pills daily. My biggest dream nowdays is to get off these pills and less pain!!! And to get rid of this brace on my arm that doesn't help with the typing...

I have learned to do more things left handed and have become pretty proefficient at a couple(like, um...wiping. You wouldn't believe how difficult it's been!!!) And am keeping what I hope to be a decent sense of humour, all things considered.

I did end up going on a one day mental break. Was at my counseling appointment and just had a breakdown--sometimes the whole depression/anxiety crap is just too overwhelming to handle--one day only in the mental ward, tho' I honestly have to say, i could've used a longer break. But it did make my family sit up and take notice--it's not just a "chemical imbalance" to them anymore. I think they might finally see me as an adult(scary, considering it's a first). And I need help. Mainly just them to actually listen to me. Ironic that it takes outside help just to achieve that.

Anyways, that's been my summer since I last gathered. I'll try to update and check y'all out more often...it's just a pain to write much when I have to do this in public...and these chairs hurt, too!

Have a good day, y'all...and enjoy this beautiful fall weather.