break apart

why do I feel so shut out of your mind
as if I were some kind of cruel distraction
I never wanted to be so unkind
not even for a portion of a fraction
but all I get are fantasies and silence
why did I think you'd never take offense
from the struggles that go on inside my heart
that often make it slowly break apart

could I even find the time to learn the truth
that stirs in your soul when you think my name
when I ponder how Boaz watched out for Ruth
I start to doubt that you could care the same
will there ever be a hope to find compassion
within the arms of wild and gentle passion
could I ever find the skill to dare impart
the ways your silence makes me break apart

I wish that God would care enough to end
this foolishness that causes me to love
someone who's hardly a distant friend
cause I can't stand what I can't be free of
if you never cared to care enough for me
to tell the truth so you can set me free
are you so cruel to own a steely heart
while mine of crystal falls to break apart

if you think I'm a toy please stop your game
so my true heart can find another beau
I wasn't looking for someone to blame
so if there is no hope just tell me so
I can't abide an empty shell of ice
who couldn't offer me his paradise
so please spare me your tricks of light and art
because I wish my heart won't break apart

©2008 Cynth Bage