Make Sure Self-Improvement is in the First Person context

 . . . and you will see amazing things happen.

As a clairvoyant, my gift to see things happen in the very near future, not so near and then even quite distant future during my wakened hours WHILE during REM dream-sleep I am travelling along the roads my old soul had many sojourns through, I feel empowered ! I am thinking up (can't grow anymore don't think, I'm 42 !) intellectually reaching the edges of not insanity but clarification. I have been stirred from a deep sleep induced by the ego and nurtured by the brain but ignored by the mind.

I am now awakening from the coma induced by my traumatic birth, my entrance into a confusing environment, my formative years, my indoctrinated adolescence, my horrible and semi-astonishing teenage years, my turbulent young adult life with two marriages witnessed by God--failed, my emotionally & psychologically stimulating thirties-something years, and now finally my re-awakening into the 42nd year of my existence is without the stamina I used to have. 

Why ? you might ask. Well I have been drained of my real true me and replaced with an automatton, meaning a robot going through the motions of physical despair and inevitable death only destroying the longevity theory instead of nurturing it. I have been since birth, traumatic I might add,  encouraged to live in a 'thanatos' connotation of life rather than an 'eros'. This means a death sentence is to be feared rather than acknowledged as being not the end but a new another beginning.  "Thanatos" is death embraced living; "eros" is life-embraced living.

The draining process only started recently getting re-filled with new and exciting venues of self-improvement. To use what my two-way communication with my spirit guides as a tool to sensing my future, I can shed the fear of dying and perhaps outlive what even my ego expectations limits me too. Okay I smoke cigarettes, I know very nasty habit, but a habit nevertheless. It is my greatest challenge to cut down and finally quit--but having some flexibility in my spirit allows my stubborn ego to find reason in aiding the 'longevity process' and believing in 'eros-living' not just talking about it.

I have placed a shorter version of my recent newsletter found at The Enlightenment-Psych.net Intuitions page for you below to understand more graphically what this new awakening really reveals to me.

 "Rounding out the end of my long-taking study of Chapter 5 about latching on to positive or negative energy & what happens to my spirit after the physical host looses all power, I am more amazed at what messages my spirit guides are telling me and how remarkable it is to have found the communication venue to do so. My ego (and how my formative years conditioning made me so despondent with my existence) served as a door that held me back from being the ALL I am supposed to be; NOW I am so much freer even though some believe I am wasting my time."

"In a struggle against the way society and self-made existence plans are going awry, I will STILL dance to the beat of my own drum and be the better for it. I am inhabited, well this physical host representing and acting like Miss Erica Hidvegi is, by an old soul that has travelled through many many lifetimes. He has danced, sang and played the violin to several incarnations over the course of several centuries. I know this with my whole being because I dream it. For example, a few nights ago I was sitting in Pere' LaChaisse, where Honore deBalzac and James Douglas Morrisons bodies are buried but there spirit lives on. The more and more I talk to one of my guides, the more convinced I am that deBalzac (one of my favorite poets) is one of my guides.

"I know some of you may find it incomprehensible, a form of gibberish, quacky new-age, satan-inspired and maybe possibly even crazy; but perhaps I am right. Perhaps what is happening to me is the most eye-opening challenge my physical and psychological being has ever taken on." "Perhaps it should happen to you and you are avoiding it with every thing you can, that you consciously accept, and that is what is making your soul cry out for mere recognition ! " "Listen to it, I say . . ." yeah but who am I right ? Just a friend, a comrade on this sojourn of life; hence the name 'sojournseeker'.

"The funny part of the realization, that ones ego restrains them from harnessing a spiritually-rooted venue to self-improvement therefore causing dissention between selves, is not really humorous but a rude awakening.  .  . security of the spirit self, stays buried and we stay pure ego misguided by society. Indoctrinations shutting us out from immortality. . .

'till next time, the Enlightenment Advisor a.k.a 'enlightenedpsych2' ©2008 enlightenmentpsych.net-- All Rights Reserved ericahidvegiEPN