Get Out Of My Way

I Have been having trouble writing the last few months. I'm blocked. I feel stuck and imprisoned within myself. I have been avoiding feeling things I don't want to feel and overwhelmed by life in general. My friend Lisa said to pray to God. I have prayed, but I guess I haven't been listening. She reminded me of this poem I wrote long ago when I felt lost from God. So I thought I would repost it. Maybe it will help others who may feel lost or overwhelmed.

I was walking along one day

Admiring the road God chose for me.

It was a beautiful path lined with beautiful flowers.

The path was smooth with very few hills and barriers to overcome.

And I felt blessed.

But

One day

My

beautiful road

Twisted

And turned

becoming dark

and gloomy.

I cried out of shock

when my feet

were pierced

by a rocks edge

and

they began to bleed.

I came upon tiny hills

which

became bigger

as I progressed.

I wondered what

sin

I committed

for God

to lead me to this horrible,

ugly path.

My legs

grew tired

from climbing hills

and struggling

along

my path.

Tears streamed

down my face

and I asked,

God,

"Why are you

allowing me to go

through this

torment?"

There was no answer.

One day

as I was

stumbling along this

gray,

ugly path,

tripping over stones and rocks

and

mounds of dirt,

I was feeling miserable.

While minding

my own business

A voice suddenly

came out of nowhere

and

sounding rather distressed

the voice shrieked

GET OUT OF MY WAY!!

I stopped walking and gazed around me

but I could not

see where the voice had come from.

GET OUT OF MY WAY!

The voice roared again

I could hardly breathe.

"Who..Who are you?"

I asked timidly.

"I don't see how I am in your way."

"Where are you?

?

GET OUT OF MY WAY!

I AM TRYING TO DO MY JOB AND

YOU ARE GETTING IN MY WAY!

SO SCOOT OVER A LITTLE, WILL YOU ?

I became angry. 'I am in YOUR way?

Look, I haven't exactly had an easy time

stumbling along this awful, ugly road.

AND

My feet hurt too!

I don't see how I can be in your way

when I don't even see you."

LOOK BEHIND YOU!

I turned around and

I

still didn't see anything!

"I AM HERE

BEHIND YOU"

If you would follow me,

then you may discover

your road

is easier to walk.

But you insist on going your way

instead of following me."

"Are you crazy? I didn't

choose this road; GOD did.

I am being punished for

something I must have done wrong in my life. It

is GOD"S fault that I am on this horrible path.

I wouldn't choose this road myself."

"BUT YOU DID, MY CHILD.

THIS PATH YOU ARE ON WAS YOUR CHOICE.

WHEN YOU TOOK YOUR EYES OFF OF ME, YOU TOOK THE WRONG

ROAD.

IF YOU GET OUT OF MY WAY

AND ALLOW ME TO LEAD

THEN YOU WILL BE TRAVELING IN

THE RIGHT DIRECTION

FOR YOU.

IT MAY NOT ALWAYS BE AN EASY

PATH, BUT I WILL CARRY

YOU

AND KEEP YOU SAFE"

"Are you GOD?"

I asked timidly

The voice was tender

and He said,

"WHAT DO YOU THINK?"

I became humble and yet

I was confused.

"If I can't see you,

how can I stay out of your way?"

SIMPLY BELIEVE IN ME.

"Seek and you shall find?"

I asked

EXACTLY!

IF YOU OPEN YOUR HEART

AND ACCEPT ME INTO YOUR LIFE,

YOU WILL DISCOVER

I AM THERE.

So I looked for God and accepted HIM into my life.

It wasn't easy.

But now I am on a path

overflowing with God's love

and

it is beautiful

and peaceful.

I am eager to live my life

and I felt

loved.

So I walk this path

with God's guiding hand

and I know

that if I fall

God will be there

to make me strong.

I try to stay out of

God's way

because when I try to

lead the way,

My

road becomes

difficult and rocky

I become lonely

and

confused.

But when God leads the way

My path may still be rocky

But I am not lonely

and my feet don't hurt quite as much.