Disappointment

I wish I was a turtle so I could crawl  into my shell and just shield myself away from the world. I have been non- stop looking for a job.  For the first time I was being considered for two positions with one company. I put alot of effort to some dumb email assignment for a position that I didn't even apply for. It was full of errors. I knew in my heart I maybe should have arrived to work earlier. I will be laid off 07/31/08 and haven't come close to a job that pays decent. I am trying so bad to hold my tears. I mean I been calling temp agencies they act as if they don't know what's going on. I am steady forwarding my resume and getting only a few responses. I am just wondering what could have happened if I could have just got interviewed for what I applied for. I am so sad.  I have been swallowing tears all day. I am going to call my first interviewer. I know by now the job is long gone.