Spoke Too Soon

Recently I wrote an article about how my baby boy, Timothy, finally slept through the night. Well, that was literally a one-time deal. Since then, I've been getting less and less sleep with the little guy. He's started a new "fad" of getting up in the middle of the night and staying awake for two hours. I'm totally exhausted and look like roadkill without the treadmarks. I tried one night to let him "cry it out" after getting about 45 minutes of sleep in total; needless to say, he cried for so long and when I finally went to him, he was all sweaty and retching. It was horrible.

I feel so down lately about a lot of things. Timothy won't take a bottle at all and I've been trying for months to get him to practice with a little juice/ water combo. He won't sleep in his crib yet and is still sleeping in my bedroom. And the sleeping through the night deal? I'm getting to the point that if he *only* gets up twice a night, it is good (and that's pretty sad). I have to go back to work in September and he's going to go either to day care (ugh) or a caregiver. Somehow, I have to get him to conquer these obstacles and I just feel so low that I am not looking forward to weeks of even further sleep deprivation and problems.

In any event, everything seems really overwhelming, and I haven't been Gathering as much as I was before, because I am simply too tired most of the time. I hope that my friends don't think that I am neglecting your work, but I am just really worn down. :(