flaw'd fatale

explain
what this means
to be left alone
in m'own thoughts
torturing me
giving no room
to remember
words
that crush m'bones
with the weight of
their impossible
implausible
mouthfulls
and i'm lost
in something traced
with wistful eyes
i hold onto anger
no longer mine
i hold this space
too soft to bare
alone
i remember
what i'm told
when it fits
in this pocket
i'm filling with pennies
collected from those
with plenty
i'm indebted
to mem'ries
i'd rather fill
with pasted parts
i'd rather forget
i'm lonely
by being alone
it's best
because
how the hell
do i get back
to this place
where singular
wins
and plural
no longer is an option
where
i'm thought of
less than you
it's killing me
in deep belly
breathes