I can't stop thinking of what you did to me, to our family.
Why? Why did you do this? Why couldn't you stop? why couldn't you stay home?
I miss you so much today. I can't stop crying. i can't stop being mad. I will never forgive you.
I think back over the past 14 years and wonder if there were really any good times. I can't think of many. Other then our children.
My heart drops, my throat tightens, I shake all over and I feel sick to my stomach.
My eyes are forever red now. Will this pain ever go away? Will my life ever be "normal"?
I need you to tell me you love me. I need you to hold me and comfort me. I need you to call me to see how I'm doing. Will you though, i don't know.
I can't stay with you. You have betrayed me way to much now. I don't want to lose you though, I love you way to much.
What about our kids, they will just be 2 more to add to the thousands of others with broken families. I can't do that that to them. Were you thinking of them at the time? Don't know.
Are you really sorry? Are you still lieing to me? I hurt so much, I can't handle this anymore. I don't know what to do. I am tired of crying over someone that wasn't thinking of me. Only themselves.
I hate you for this. I HATE YOU!