One of My Clients Passed Away

I heard sad news today that my client who recently went on Hospice services passed away on Friday night.  On Monday when I went to see her for our scheduled time she was having problems breathing.  She had called her doctor earlier that day and was waiting for her to call back.  She said her breathing was seemingly more difficult than it had been before she was released from the hospital.

She had a visit that weekend from her daughter and one of her grandchildren. This was a visit that she really enjoyed.  Her voice was filled with joy as she spoke of the time they spent together.  I was delighted that she was able to spend time with her loved ones.

She spoke to me of what she was planning to do this summer and next year. I felt a pang as I thought about this. Was this her Swan Song?

The two hours flew by.  I even spent a little extra time with her too.  She needed some medication and I told her that I would go pick it up for her.  When she called the doctor's office they said she hadn't yet called in the prescription.  She told me that she appreciated the fact that I offered to pick up the meds for her but it would still be another hour before they would be ready.  So, I got my things together as we chatted for a few more minutes.

She thanked me for my help and wished me a wonderful weekend.  She also bid my husband well on his surgery.  As I was leaving I told her that I expected her to be home next week, no more episodes would be allowed.  She smiled and said "God willing and the creek doesn't rise."  I smiled back at her bid her goodbye as I left the house.

Today I started my day out as usual.  My Monday schedule never changes.  But, today I thought that perhaps I should call, just in case.  In my haste, I forgot to call and headed for my first client's house.

My first client has a volunteer that comes to her house to take care of errands and other things that my agency cannot do for her.  This volunteer and I share a common interest.  My lady that I care for on Tuesdays is a friend of hers.  I know this because my lady often spoke of this woman and she knew I was her homemaker.  The woman asked me if I had heard of "A", and I thought it was about her recent hospitalization.   She said she went into the hospital last week and died on Friday.   Her words knocked the wind out of me.  I didn't know what to say.  I cried.  The woman apologized.  I told her not to worry, it was the price to be paid for working in healthcare.

I know that I shouldn't let this bother me so much.  They tell you not to get too close to those you care for.  But, how can you not connect with these people?  I am saddened by "A's" passing.  She was a wonderful woman full of wisdom and joy.  I was blessed to have known her, even though it was for only a short time.

"A" was 61-years old.  She walks with angels now.