Why Do I Keep Waiting

Why do I keep waiting when I know it is futile and in vain

Why do I keep away the aspirin when I know that it can take away my pain

Why do I keep lifting the load and shifting gear and making my heart n soul heavy

Why do I hope for the sunlight when I can hear the clouds rumbling n know it is going to rain;

Why do I wish that someone deeply caring will come to me

Why do I want that someone really sharing will write to me

Why do I prepare my mind and thoughts for someone dear

When I know that no one can come no one can write or share;

Oh Lord please give my heart a little peace inside

So that I may learn to be patient and abide

I may not be heavy hoping for someone beside

I may not cry and have tears to hide;

Why did I ever find you  living so close

And started to call you my flower, the rose

And you began to write my name in its meaning the star

When only a few days later we were to drift so far;

Why do you have to be so fearful about things

And keep on walking when you can fly on wings

Why do you have to worry fret and beware

When The Lord good things to all good people brings

Why do I have to be so friendly every time I meet

A young eager person learner so keen and sweet

Why do I want to do all I can and not think of any retreat

Why did The Lord make me so free easy and light on my feet:

I will never know the answers to all these questions

I only know that I love  The Lord  who gives me these reflections

And keeps me going in the right directions

I pray that He keeps sending His good people Like Holy Christ's Resurrection.