Journalizing My Writing Journey

Date: April 16, 2008

Working on: New Novel

Here I sit.   Staring at the screen, a blank white page.  The word that comes to mind?

Frustration!

I fear that my writing is almost too different and bizarre.  Does this mean I am losing it? I think to myself.  No.  Look at Stephen King.  You can say what you want about Stephen King, but we all ran out to get his latest Horror Show~!

I already have one manuscript sitting here waiting for me to get the courage to request a few more people look at it. What is holding me back? Is it the writing of the manuscript? Well, when you write in blood, I don't think that is the main concern.  Is it because I put some of my soul into it? Well, that could be.   As much as that frightens me, a person with courage does what they fear the most, and they move on from there.  Right?

I think the thing that I fear the most is that I don't see my style of writing out there.

The closest thing to my writing style is Dean Koontz.  I think there is only room for one Dean Koontz.  God!  It feels good to get that off my chest! (She said with a sigh),

This is a small synopsis of what a writer goes through I am almost certain on a daily basis.  Writing is no longer a hobby, but rather, a part of who I am.  I am a writer. Writing and I have had a love affair for so long; I can't recall not writing something, somewhere, at some time.

Therefore, I will go back to that page and play the "fool." I will write as though I am in control…the puppeteer.  Until, the character comes on the page, and wags his finger in my face.

"I wouldn't do that, and you know it. Change this. Move that." 

Wait! Who is the puppeteer?  Don't worry.  I think I know.  (She said with a sigh).