My reading last week in A Course in Miracles was Lesson 335 in the workbook or students: "I choose to see my borther's sinlessness." I often tend to gloss over the titles and head for the "meat" of the lessons, but this lesson came at the perfect time, and it's title became the perfect mantra against a creeping resentment. I found myself needing to control my unpleasant and resentful thoughts about someone, and like a blessing, I remenbered this and could use it. That's a miracle.
Normally, my reading barely registers, and I often think I don't have the ability to practice the presence of God. This reading, like the entire book, has proven again that all I need to do is show up (by reading it regularly) and give my consent to be changed.
It's nice to know something that works. I've wanted to change myself, my actions, my feelings, thoughts, and habits for as long as I can remember. I was suicidal shortly before I began reading ACIM. I really did buy the book as a last resort, if this didn't work, I was going to give up completely. Within a few weeks, I began to have a different outlook. I haven't been anything like suicidal in about 300 days. That's a miracle!
Pax.
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Interesting that you should mention suicide, I've noticed recently that it is a form of slow suicide to attempt to live in the world without some form of miraculous experience. We may not actually take the pills or shoot ourselves in the head but we die a little bit, every day when we are starved of spiritual food.
Our relationships fall apart, or our work seems utterly mundane, our children consume us in what seems a selfish cloud of neediness and we feel isolated, even within a crowd.
We can seek counseling or therapy, go to a spa, have cosmetic surgery and countless other fixes that will seem to work temporarily, but as you say in your article, the "creeping resentments" the anxiety will always return and ofter with greater power to overwhelm us.
The fixes we seek in the world are quick, but they can't last because their foundation is not solid. In order for something to be lasting we need to reorient towards it, retrain our minds so that that which we have sought to fulfill us in our times of lack and deprivation, is there when we most need it.
I'm glad you have found the Course, it will sustain you and sooner than you think you will not even need that, it is truly is a miracle Ann...
We need to get the group going. I need to contact the person you mentioned as well.
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