Conversations From Beyond

These incidents I am about to explain happen without warning, offering me a vision of somewhere outside of peripherality, are indeed spontaneous and not so much emotionally taxing, but rather cognitively confusing. There is little logic for being able to communicate with those that have passed over, but I can. The impact of the less frequent but equally persuasive visits, has been exceptionally enlightening and grounding.

For brief moments in my time continuum, Aaron (real birth name withheld for respect) an ex-companion soulmate (not twin lifemate), appears accompanied by a calm breeze or a fascimile hazy visual that does not require the use of the lens, optic nerve, cornea or retina. It is a different kind of 'seeing'. It is communicating, conversing with a subtle energy from beyond.

Most of the time when this happens I am alone and able to produce a very unique representation of 'an angelic force' emitting from my deep-seeded loss of the physical love we shared. There is little fear now but when these 'appearances' first started to materialize before me, I was not sure why and asked out loud, "why is this happening to me and because of you"? Within two weeks of placing Aaron's shattered and horribly disfigured body into a new coffin for resting, he came to me on this cold and rainy windswept night at the apartment. I had not been able to cry anymore as the wellsprings had run dry since from the moment the funeral was over and about four days into the next week, all I did was bawl and ate some very skimpy meals. I hardly slept also so I suppose my receptive channels were extremely vulnerable to subtle penetration.

We had enjoyed almost two years together and for this short time we were allowed the physical attraction to not undermine the growth and development of a greater connection: a spiritual bonding. For the sake of a few common experiences we bonded on in this plane, past centuries and a strange influence said we may never have pressed bodies before, but certainly pressed wits and energies. It was discovered through many nights of talking and bringing scripture to real-light, Aaron had been a contender in a few dream-fights I had when experiencing a struggle with something. It was when wrestling with things I could not comprehend, the force of Aaron's faith in his Christ, helped me see without looking, understand without knowing, and to just believe. He believed to have 'died' many times since witnessing the crucifixion of Christ and Barabus, the thief supposedly to the right of Christ. It was strange when he would tell me these confessions but the impact after believing only happened after he died again and came back to me, through another way of communication, to prove it.

We both worked at the hospital, different shifts and different jobs of importance. He was a security guard and I was a medical assistant to two doctors, but we had one bright thing in common as far as work went: we both helped and looked out for people. I recall him reading passages from the bible he had in his glove compartment that he would take out during the slow 'dead' hours of duty and call me on the phone weeping over incidents he said, 'touched me'. He would read an incident and exclaim, "I am reflecting on this now', through tears and misery of reliving a historical affirmation of something divine. I would just feel warm inside without really comprehending from 'whence the heat cometh.'

Now after physical death took him again, Aaron was confidant he felt Christ's passion and feared nothing telling me to fear nothing as well. That I could have as much strength in this plane than when I leave it to 'live-in' the next. The skepticism I managed to hide became a tiny sore slowly festering into total disbelief and probably would have been more convincing if the only other person who could convince me 'of life on the other side is real' 100% was not already somewhere else, not excited about being challenged in a bi-racial confrontation, so grandpas affirmations waned and Aaron's swelled.

He appeared again on 4-27-2004 to help me bring his story and past life regressions into the mainstream of human existence. I have been reluctant to reiterate these visits and keep the scenario hidden from public attention out of fear of being categorized 'mentally challenged-negatively influenced'.  Quite the contrary as I believe now I am mentally challenged in a positive respect due to allowing my ego and weaknesses of the body and mind to fall to the wayside, and give creedence to having been given a resource that will help me choose wisely when faced with things I cannot explain.  These unexplained experiences were repetetive happening at least twice a month and even more when tension in my life seemed more than I could handle.

My confusion still lies now in whether these sightings are not truly spontaneous because I continue to get visits and some of them are thought-about and silently requested to occur. For the most part though, the visits are unannounced, sometimes faceless, and unconditionally volunteering to remove any and all of my pain and suffering when I myself, cannot. Aaron's energy manifests into what I remember he was before the accident. He cannot talk to me the way he used to, he cannot touch me the same but I can feel his energy go through me as if to congratulate me for believing . . . and now sharing it with the physical world at large.

*UPDATE: on 10/13/09 Aaron visited me again and had tears in his eyes as he had learned so many people through what he and I started are actually getting the education they deserve. Let us hear it for the "Golden Key" . . .