"Moses saw the dancing around the golden calf
and broke the tablets in rage.."
a scene from "The ten commandments"
"The opposite of evil is the sacred"
Mathew Fox
And so they danced
not seeing him
approach
and now
the sacred words
had left the tablets
as they broke.
Broken clay
as broken as the bond
between man and his creator.
You make promises
and then you break them
isn't that the human way of
doing things?
But then you see them
still living together
keeping their vows
they had made
why them?
why not us?
I find an old photo
where you still had
your arms around my shoulder
and i did not see this then
it took a photo to remind me
whenever i am facing the infinite
meeting the ocean at my feet
or touching stones that symbolize life
i think how weak i was
to give you up
i should have struggled more
i should have done more
to try to keep that arm
around my shoulder
and now it is all lost
broken like the clay
my quest for the sacred
once again leads to breaking clay
it needs to be rewritten
it needs to be accepted
again
and nothing else will do
the broken pieces will not mend
no matter how many tears
will gather at the place
where the decision had been made:
to break
to break
so once again i could be whole
but that takes so much more
than i ever thought
it would
it will demand a commitment
i have never held before
to something higher beyond
myself
to accept the law
will mean
letting go of all the chaos
all that did not make much sense
down here below.
So it is another mountain
the only one in fact
that i must climb and conquer
in the everlasting quest
the thirst , the hunger
hardly felt
as i rise up
rise above
the broken pieces
of my previous life
the life of careless dancing
the golden calf
he wasn't real
he was just a deal
he wasn't what was meant
to be the purpose, the ideal
he was just some glitter
something shining in the sun
coming near i realize
watching him
only made me
blind.
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Comments: 2
i was not sure it made any sense
it just asked to be written and so i did