Well, it has finally happened, tomorrow I will go on my first date. I know, I know, some of you who know me are very confused. You're saying, "Monica, sweetie, don't you remember you were married before? How is this going to be your first date?" Well, those of you who know me REAL well understand. I met my ex-husband online in 2001. We had a long distance relationship for 7 months, hoping to meet somehow. When we realized neither could afford to travel across country for dates, we decided one of us needed to move. He was in California and I was in North Carolina (ever heard the song "Heads Carolina Tails California" - that was us in a nutshell!). After lots of discussion, it was decided that I would move to California. So I pretty much moved right in with him (yes, I know I was crazy, but we were in love). Jeff was the first guy I had ever been in a relationship with - and to this date is still the only one. Had certain things not happened in our relationship, I would still be married to him, but things did happen that were not conducive to being married, and as of November of last year, we are divorced.
So while I have been in a previous relationship, and have been married, I never really did the traditional dating. So it does feel really weird right now to think that tomorrow I will be going on my first date - EVER. I met Darren online too. He is a sweet guy from Pigeon Forge (home of Dollywood), and finally, after having talked off and on (he has been very patient with me missing his calls and taking time to cope with my own life issues) I finally suggested he come to my area so we can finally meet.
Darren will be coming tomorrow to go to lunch after I get done with church. I have suggested one of my favorite restaurants and suggested we decide what else we will do during lunch. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I have finally gotten to the point where I realize I am okay with being divorced, and am enjoying single life. I am not really looking too heavily into the prospect of a relationship with anyone right now, but am game for having some fun and seeing where it leads me. Worst case scenario, I get that "first date" out of the way. Best case scenario is it could be the beginning of a beautiful thing. Most likely it will be somewhere in between the two extremes. I hope to be able to report positively soon!