I would say before my children were born my grandmother was the most special person in the world to me. You know that person that you could go to with anything and they would kiss you and tell you that they loved you no matter what. Whenever I felt inadequate or my world was crumbling(or so I thought) my grandmother was the one who gave me unconditional love.
I spent all day yesterday in the hospital watching her die and holding her hand. Reminiscing about the days I spent with her as a child. She used to let my sister and I wear her nightgowns and we played "Bride". She always made us pancakes from scratch after she had her 2nd cup of tea(She's from England and can't live without her tea).
I love her so much, but want her to be at peace. I am off to the hospital again today and pray for God to have mercy on her. She needs to fly with the angels and be free.


Comments: 37
I'm glad that you have all of those wonderful memories to keep in your heart.
peace.
I'm losing a long time friend to cancer, he's on the road seeing what he can see of this great big beautiful country of ours, making the most of his last days. But I can't stop thinking of him. I don't have many friends so it is particularly hard to lose one.
My mother died in her late 81 first year and she use to ask me, "Why am I still here? Does God have a sick sense of humor or what?"
I read of a Tibetan monk who on his death bed told them around him not to worry, he'll be fine, "go tend to the cattle now I will see you later" .. closed his eyes and died. Now that's peace!
Cherish the memories .. colored with love they age very well. ;O)
As is your grandmother.
Sorry you're going through
this hard time.
It's tortureous. She wants to go and was BEGGING to go and she is still hanging in there. I am sure it won't be too much longer. She is so weak she can't even talk now and she was removed from all the meds except pain and aderol for anxiety. She can't swallow and did not want a tube..It is soooooooooo HARD to see her suffer. She is aware and knows what we are saying and just implores us with her eyes. It is soooo HARD to see all this. I could not go back last night, but I will go today. My family is upset I didn't bring the kids back. My daughter told me my middle son was crying all day. I want them to remember her the way she was. I don't think they should see her and my daughter does not want to go back. She went on Sat and my mom was telling my grandmother to go and we love her and it was ok and my daughter HAD to leave. She could not take it. She is 17 and it is rough.
She was such a kind woman all her life.
I will be thinking of you.