Missing in Action

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Carol's Corner

December 18, 2007

Sorry for the mass email but Iam too worn out to write separate emails to all my special friends on thisissue.

I have had a bad time sinceOctober, first the death of a good friend's mom, and in the same week the worryabout Matt's mom. We thought she was dying. Thank God she had pulled through that major scare.

Since then my health took aturn for the worst, but worst still Matt came down with a cough that wouldn'tgo away.  It progressed from bronchitis to pneumonia. But it still didn'tgo away.

They took tests and first saidhe had emphysema.  Then they did more tests and said he didn't have it.

At this point matt was veryworried who wouldn't be thinking they had emphysema? It was a relief though toknow he didn't have it.  But the cough didn't go away.

When Matt coughs he spits up flemmebut worst still he cannot breathe.

He can't even sleep at nightwith the cough and breathing problems.  He has not been able to work verymuch in over a month.

He has gone for all kinds oftests, and had at least 30 tests so far.

The tests came back that he hasa collapsed trachea; that means the breathing tube from the throat to the lungshas collapsed.

He had to go for another testto see what was causing it. Today they were supposed to insert a tube down hisnose, they couldn't get it in, and he stopped breathing.  The trachea isjust too small now; not big enough to get the tube in.

Of course it was painful for Mattand as it turned out totally useless.  Now he has to go back again so theycan try some other tests.

I am so weary over this and ofcourse my Matt more so.

Also, it is Christmas, I haveno money, no way of getting money, and the bill collectors are houndingme.  I don't have special food for Christmas.  Normally I eat fromfood banks but it is closed now for the holidays.

I am so tired of living sobelow the poverty line that life is really sometimes not worth the living.

I had a major stress attackbecause I had a fight with the telephone company. I had just paid a portion ofthe bill and it is not enough for them.  They were lucky they got that. Inever have enough money to pay my bills each month. 

I do writing assignments and Iwas in bed for over 4 days with major migraine, tension headaches and dizzinessover the money situation.  Because of thestress, of course I was not able to finish the assignment. I am doing the lastarticle today from that series.

Once I get the money what do Ipay?  Which portion of which bill. I am behind in everything.

You know to heck with it, Iwas going to send this just to a few people, but I have now decided to send toeveryone on Storytime Tapestry and gather.com

The local TV station isadvertising for Christmas donations.  They have a slogan, "poverty shouldnot be a life time sentence", but for me it is.

I am disabled right now, notable to go out and work, I rely on a government cheque that actually is a joke.It does not cover even half of my household expenses.  I get some money throughwriting assignments and donations. 

The writingassignments are not regular; I can go for months without anything comingin.  The donations, even though constantlyadvertised on Storytime Tapestry are not regular either.  But Istill have internet expenses to keep the e-zine going: electricityexpenses, not to mention my time and effort and wear and tear on the computer. I give of myself willingly for this e-zine but I do need help in keeping itrunning.

It is the Christmas season,people talk about helping the less fortunate, well folks I am one of the lessfortunate, though I no doubt would prefer to be on the other end.  I alsogave to the needy, and if I had money now I would still do so.

Please continue to help outStorytime Tapestry during this holiday season and year long. I sincerelyappreciate each and every one of you.

Another way of contributingand getting back, besides the joy of reading the e-zine is to purchase mylatest book, Angels Watching Over Me, you can get it here:  http://www.lulu.com/content/964306,the book can also be given as a Christmas present, birthday present, and more. Not only will you be helping me and Storytime Tapestry, but you will be addingpleasure to the life of the person whom you have chosen to give this gift to.

Many people on StorytimeTapestry and gather.com have promised to purchase the book; there is no bettertime than now to do it.  Sales are slow and not much revenue is coming in;actually nothing in a few months.

I am sorry for this rant but Ijust had to get it off my chest, and know that I love you all dearly.

Please pray for me, matt andall people who are hurting in this world.

Carol