I just spent my day praying and trying not to cry

Today has been a very rough day for me. I spent most of the day at the hospital where my oldest daughter was taken this morning after taking a handfull of pills. No one is real sure why she decided to take them or exactly what all she did take as she was so out of it she couldn't tell anyone much of anything.

She has two kids, 3 years old and 3 months old. She is married, buying a trailer, has two car payments, etc. She is only 21 though. She seemed happy enough Sunday when I saw her - twice!

I found out from her husband who called me to tell me he was taking her to the ER that she had been having an affair with another married man. It is all out in the open now and the man's wife not only kicked him out, but went to work and told the bosses that she didn't want Elizabeth fired, just moved to another place in the plant. (Her bosses have a no affair rule and if caught having one it is automatic termination.)

I don't think this was an intentional suicide attempt as she had been talking about getting her hair cut and colored and her daughter's hair cut today so it would look good when they all went to Florida to visit her grandparents the day after Christmas and how happy she was that she had lost some weight from having the baby. Now I am not so sure that they will be able to go as Matt missed work today and will miss tomorrow as well. Same for Elizabeth. She left work early Monday saying she was "sick" to be that man and was hospitalized today and won't be able to go to work tomorrow either.

She is the ICU right now and is finally coming around some. She is still drifting in and out of sleep from whatever she too. We think it was Phenegren (her migraine medicine), Percacet (from some dental work a few months back), Flexaril (given to her by a friend for her migraines) and an Adavan (kind of like Valium). We don't if she took all of these, part of these, or just one type.

All I know is that I am scared for her and for her babies! Matt told me that when she was in the ER and awake at one point in time and wanting to see the kids, that she told Samantha (the three year old) that she had made a terrible mistake and didn't know if she could fix it or not. I don't know if my granddaughter understood that or not. I think she just thinks mommy is sick. I don't want to tell her any different at this point in time either because even though she is smart, there is just some things she doesn't need to know about yet.

I called in to work today and had them find a sub for my bus so I could stay there and go get food for me and Matt as neither one of us had eaten all day. I will go to work tomorrow, but after work in the morning, I will be running back to the hospital to drop of a couple of toothbrushes and some toothpaste for them. (Thank God for freebies and free toothbrushes from the dentist every six months even though I use an electric one!) A friend of the family will bring Matt breakfast, so I won't have to worry about that. I will also have to go to work tomorrow afternoon, so I can't be at the hospital all day.

I did manage to speak to her doctor this evening when he came into the ICU room. He was going to be contacting Poison Control and see what else needs to be done now that her levels of oxygen and heart rate are more normal. She has thrown up, but her body is still fighting the drugs. He did say she should be more alert tomorrow and in much better health. She will have to talk to a psychiatrist and possibly spend 72 hours in a psyc ward at another hospital if it was intentional. I hope not though. I do think she needs to get help from someone though. I just can't imagine why she didn't come to me or to one of her friends for help or advice. She and I are pretty close and she knows she can talk to me about anything. And I do mean anything!

All I am asking is that you all keep her in your prayers that she will be okay and figure out what she needs to do to make life better.