Here I sit so weak and merry
Wish I had a bowl of cherries
But I don't in my search to find
Something nice or an ax to grind
If my mind seeks feral release
In the vacuum of saying please
And expectations play along
Like someone with a loaded gun
Playing cruel jokes without reason
And sitting ducks scour this season
Behind the eight ball where I play
To catch gall in this holiday
May I smile and act so shallow
With a pale laugh turning mellow
As you comment about my traits
Please stick each thought you know the place
In my box of missing cookies
Lurks a sly child playing hooky
Who said no thanks to golden rings
That had so many attached strings
And I had scissors which could cut
For independence knows but must
In wasted days the bare trees shared
Without pretense in nothing dared
Made my bed in which I'm sleeping
As my dreams find bumps and creases
On a highway with covered signs
And empty spaces as I ride
Into the turns of each crossroad
Where jagged edges do not know
That past reminders once exclaimed
The words of can’t etched to my name


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the meaning of what you penned. Some times it is so
hard for me to comprehend dear man, so sorry. Have
a Blessed day William.
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I'm off to ponder, have a great day!!
I know more than likely this isnt what you were saying. I too get confused trying to understand most poetry.
I too find a difficulty with this poem.
I sense that it has to do with your childhood.
I'm intrigued by the verse that begins with "In my box of missing cookies...."
I feel that this verse is at the heart of your poem...but I do need help from you with this one.
My second stanza is to set you up for the discussion. I let you know there's a feral nature about me, which is very tired of the fake niceness, which to me is dangerous.
In the third stanza I tell you I see too much cruelty. I try to hide from it, but sometimes I speak out and then I get attacked and it ruins my holiday spirit. My fourth stanza is a continuation of the third. I try to be a nice guy, but inside the feral animal in me wants to release anger. Finally the personal attacks make me strike back as the final line of stanza 4 clearly shows.
Stanza 5 is me trying to understand why I am the way I am. I greatly dislike violence verbally or physically, but yet I can't deny the feral animal in me wants to strike out with violence. The rest of the poem is an introspective look at myself and the things that helped to cause the feral nature in me.
I hope this helps. I usually write fairly easy to understand poems, but I just wanted to try something different. Maybe too different.
I think we all have some 'feral' anger... I hope that it smooths out for you soon.
Lurks a sly child playing hooky
Who said no thanks to golden rings
That had so many attached strings
This is the verse that makes perfect sense to me.
You say you personally dislike violence, verbally or physically, yet you want to strike out. Welcome to the club! We all have the potential to be violent. I have found the only way to conquer it is to MAKE A PLAN ahead of time, how we are going to deal with whatever it is, and that plan doesn't include violence.
Hope you got some of it out of your system William! You don't need to be happy just because it's ging to be Christmas...
Last year I was in Detroit around the beginning of Advent, and there was a day, I don't remember what it was called, but there was a celebration of music and crafts and so on all geared to Christmas, and everything was free. The Salvation Army played music in (?) square, and everyone could sing along at the end. It was COLD! And a lot of fun. Do you know what I'm talking about?
...and kinda PO'd here...
I suppsed that means I have been moved.
Thank you
i thought you were gonna show me your etchings>>> hehe