Counting chickens too soon

Well if my life right now just ain't a f---ing barrel of laughs.... :|

I've a boyfriend/fwb that I've been with since June, I really like this guy, he's so much fun and just a great guy all around...well, I found out (from him, at least)that he's talking to the ex-wife, and they're thinking of getting back together(yeah, I know...I'm 'spose to be alone). So much for their being divorced a couple of years...at least, he'll stay a friend,and then some, but...I dream, can't help it.  :(

Then, right when he's leaving today, the phone rings. It's the school and Sara's spent the afternoon in the counselor's office...I don't hear much, not sure what's going on, but my "shoulder" was gone by then and I was alone. All I really know, is that the Wright County Sheriff is going to be involved, possibly a detective...and this all comes AFTER finally seeing the Crisis Prevention Plan that she filled out at school a couple of weeks ago--I only saw the one side, not the side where she says I stress her out.  But then why is she always trying to spend time with me? I don't get it--I'm so confused .

I'm losing my support, and can't get ahold of my worker(I call, leave a message, she never calls back, my family suffers). I was denied(again)SS(D)I and need a lawyer, can't get a job, my back's a ball, my knee's mush--hell, welcome to the holidays at my house!

Sometimes, I wonder why God decided that I needed to be alive and have kids....