With All Your Feeble Attempts I Still Manage To...

It's after the lights go out
when she's on top of you
trying to win her way
into your heart.
But it'll never be like the
way I am buried in there.
Underneath muscles, veins
emotions & too many memories.

It's after she kisses your neck
that you start thinking of me.
Your minds racing about
what you could've done
and what you could've said
to make me stay...
to make me see what your
actions really meant.

With your hidden messages
& all your failed attempts.
Your broken heart
that was ripped out of your chest
and just smashed into the walls
Followed by the emptiness that
no one has been able to fill
for the past four years.

But baby, I know where you went wrong.
You can thank yourself
for all the discomfort, depression
and loneliness you have felt since.
I could've told you the first night
that you walked away from us.
When you should've taken my hand;
instead of ripping me away from you.
Instead of making me feel like
the only choice I had was to
devour my heart along with you.

She's sliding off of you now...
I bet you didn't even notice her.
Her hair brushing up from your face
and down past your chest.
She's leaving you and you
can't even tell.
Cause you're stuck on me...
you're stuck with your lips
curling around the vowels
in my name.

Originally written on June 2, 2005.