Ocean Spray

That night I swore I wouldn't rest
my head on your shoulders
or have your hand slowly
run its fingers over the side of my neck
My head in the crook of your shoulders
and my breath slowing down.

There's broken body parts
shoved into hallways & corridors
on the television screen
and I'm laying there half asleep
with your hand pawing at my neck.
stay the night stay the night
My eyes are closing themselves shut
and my body is shutting down.
So i follow you into your pitch black room
no noises no noises
I just need fucking noises
to get my head from thinking about
how this is wrong - this is so fucked.
Me in your bed when someone else is in my heart
why am I here why why why
I just need noises
a buzz of a machine
the constant turning of a fan
but theres nothing.
Just silence reverberating silence.
but stop! solution or revenge?
Just walk out his apartment in the middle of the night
leave him alone in this darkness and silence
leave him to his hot house and grinding teeth
grasping arms and gripping hands.