another poem i wrote..

You saw the walls protecting everything inside me,

Carefully, lovingly, you broke them down, you see,

Now everyone thinks that I’m okay once more,

They were tired of my pain, I became a bore,

New walls are in place to hide the deep, ever-present pain,

I don't think I can talk about it; I just want peace again,

The smile on my face is real enough to deceive everyone,

My heart is full of pain; my life became totally undone,

Are you all fools who think it has really been repaired?

I must have really been a fool to think that you cared,

Now the truth is clear, yet I continue to smile,

Alone I suffer; I am still dying all the while,

I’ve cried out so many times before, as I cry out now,

People hear me at first, but they become deaf somehow,

Is there anything that anyone can do, I wonder?

As I try to figure it out I think and I ponder,

Maybe it is as hopeless as I thought it would be,

The hope people gave me now seems to be so empty,

If this is all there is to life, I want no part of it,

Just leave me alone, I don't want life, let me end it.