As I stated in an article recently, I am seeking therapy from a Cognitive Behavioral Psychologist. I haven't been happy and it's effecting my diet a huge amount. I decided that until my head is straight and I'm my happy-go-lucky self again, it is probably best to not see the nutritionist. (I have to mention my weight is at an all time high.)
She, of course, asked why and I told her pretty much what I've been expressing recently here on Gather: that I'm unhappy with my life right now. I told her that much of the issue is my August breakup with Matt, my boyfriend of 8 months. Another part is about my massive credit card debt. And yet another part was the isolation I feel from my friend who have moved to Manhattan, and seemed to have completely forgotten about where they came from (30 mins outside Manhattan), and thier friends still living there.
I think what I got most upset about, of course, was Matt. Barely being able to talk for reason of wanting to begin hysterical crying, which I did.
She told me a story:
Once upon a time there was this girl in her 20s who had been going on so many blinde dates. She was so fed-up with all of the blinde-dates that her friends and family were setting her up on that she decided, "no more" after a particularly low one set up by her mother. A couple of months later, a friend of hers said she knew a guy who was great and wanted to set her up with him. He was supposed to call her but never did. One month later, the friend asked "did that guy ever call you?" "No, he did not," the girl responded. The next day, the guy called. They decided to go out, both of them not feeling all that thrilled at the prospect of yet another blinde date which was essentially going to lead to disappointment. The fairy tale ending? My nutritionist, Shana, is now married to and has two beautiful children with the man who she so reluctantly went out with.
She told me I need to do things right now that make me happy. Like so many of my Gather friends have been telling me, "good things come to those who wait" or even the all-too-often said, "it will come when you aren't looking."