I am sorry to have worried anyone. Things are not as good as they could be, but that does not mean they are all bad. They just are what they are.
And I will get thru, so please no one worry for me. I am having a little bit of issue with anxiety due to many situational factors. Well.... a whole damn lot of them at one time. Nothing insurmountable, nothing undoable. I just have to take it all apart and deal with everything a piece at a time, and I am used to running around with my ass on fire getting it all done at once.
All will be well and in everything there is a lesson. My lesson here is to calm down and believe in myself and everything I have been taught up to this point.......and to use it and exploit the hell out of it.
Sometimes I am overwhelmed by it all. I cannot breathe. I feel nauseous. My heart is literally beating out of my chest. Frightened that I will fail or slip or lose before I can win. But that is where I hace to practice.....and exercise my faith....that all can and all will be well.
So don't worry for me.
I am still here.
I will find a way thru.
I will find my way back here....sooner than you think probably.
In the meantime. Know that I love you all and I am blessed to have the honor to know that so many wonderful people walk this Earth with me.
Prayers are good. Hope and faith are better. And I will see you all very soon. Please don't forget me.