Ever felt that your heart was a bottomless pit?
Ever felt that time,
after time,
after time
you would leap into your self and lose your self inside of who you thought
you were?
Ever with some one with whom you explode into a universe of
exciting ideas and possibilities just to learn it was all a game
and
the joke was on you?
Disillusionment doesn't lead to unhappiness,
but it can make you blue.
I'm at the point where kindness surprises me,
loyalty shakes me,
and the "true friendship" ideal unveils
my DEEPEST cynicism.
I was nurtured on,
and am sound
in the simple wisdom
that life isn't so complicated,
simplicity is the foundation of all things,
expect the unexpected,
and no matter how the world tries to surprise you,
you just shrug it off as,
"What else is new?"
~Nalita,
age 19


Comments: 34 ( 2 removed by ~Lady Neeetah of California~Obama #44 W. )
You were ahead of most with those attitudes and that knowledge. Wish I had come to some of those conclusions at 19.
It is an intelligible and understandable piece and just as good today as when you were 19. Methinks you got more than "The simplicity" thing right.
Have fun today !!
I am really surprised at the responses. I thought I was just being very negative. I was going through some old writings last night, looking for one thing and I came across this one. I laughed, trying to remember what incident(s) may have caused me to write this (????). I just don't remember. University days were the best ones of my life, and I found it hard to believe I would even write it at all.
I abandoned my original search and settled for publishing this one again.
Interesting how it was received. Thank you very much!
This is good stuff.
That's whatcha gotta do.....Shake it off,like Mariah carey says.
Good to hear from you Lady!
Thanks so much for your comment on my living room!
['cept you of course!]...
:()
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Otelia! Thank you, too. Now, when are going to hear from again. I haven't checked today, but I plan to check tomorrow; promise! Any goodies?!
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Jean! As fun as those days were, it seems as -- I cannot explain it -- it just gets better, doesn't it? I would not want to go back, either. Last week I was at the University and I actually felt sorry for the students. No, I would not want to go back. Thank you, Jean!
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Debby C.! You are soooo cute. Thank you. Go ahead and wet. ha ha ha!
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Lee -- loved your art and poetry today! I am still trying to figure out what was up that day. I was goofier then than I am now, and I cannot recall whatever possessed me to write that. I was looking for some notes/poem for an article I am working on, and stopped, looked at that one and said, "Why not!"
Voila!
Because "I thought I knew everything back then."
Could anyone tell me anything? No!
We sort of were the leadership on campus, and I was forever being taken aside
and privately told by my colleagues,
"You cannot do that!"
Did I listen? No! WHY? Because (Must I repeat it?)
"I thought I knew everything back then."
I was awaaaaaaay from home, awaaaaaaaaaay from parents
their controlling hand. . .
Yaaaaaaaaay!
"I thought I knew everything back then."
So, there is no doubt I was probably a Drama Queen too, like Lee said.
Gwen, I truly hope you win the contest.
You have shown
sweetness,
need,
and humility.
If there is something I might do to help, let me know. (Email.)
Especially when I consider how some people (I am guilty) throw away good stuff as though it is nothing.
I would really like to know the outcome of the contest, please.
Maybe I could subscribe to it, or something.
Thank you, Gwen and many blesses to you.
Besides, I know a woman who has her eye on you! ;=)
and I don't think she is in bad taste at all;
in fact I know she is NOT; I would not make such a claim about myself. . .
But, you are very kind and gracious in your compliments to me. . .
and Lloyd. . .I take them for what they are worth --
a gentleman being very kind. I do thank you, though!
you were?" lol yep. everyday. And sometimes, I wonder which one of me came back!
"I'm at the point where kindness surprises me" God, is That the truth lol. Sad, but true. It's not so much that I have been left feeling as if the joke's on me, although I've been there too... but I often feel like I'm being left to take the blame... as if no one else were involved in the situation but me and all the destruction and negativity was my own imagination.... I struggled with all of that for awhile and came out thinking... All just time spent in the Forge to temper me, make me stronger and better able to handle the next flaming idiot that leaps up to test me. lol, the only person I really need to believe in or be better than is always myself.
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U wishing you laughter
You already know that.
As for you getting married to one of the dolts you are seeing - don't bother! I can tell none of them has set you on fire and until that occurs - doneventhinkaboutit!!
Life is fine alone - with an occasional "date" - be it what it may.
Do NOT rush into anything.
Now that was one for the books.
Nice memories, but again, to cement the thought - do NOT do anything in a rush.
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Sue! ha ha ha ha! Now coming from you? That is really high praise, because you don't give it out often, and that is not an insult -- it's just that you are very practical and no-nonsense. I'm feeling good right now. I needed to hear that. Thank you!
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michael: I am far from 19 years old and I thank God for it! I would never want to go back there, although those times were good, carefree. I cannot remember the circumstances behind this writing. I am okay, believe me. Thank you for the well wishes, and God bless you!
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Tom: you have several comments. Perhaps I should address separately. . .
Some women are like stones. You just drip, drip, drip, drip, steadily and continuously on that stone like water. Eventually you shall make a dent. It is bound to happen. It is a law of nature. The woman cannot resist. I plan to do this. There is no escape! Just have patience.
So, this wearing down, like the person says is true. Then what you say, is wise. We need to talk more Tom. You need to stay in touch more. You are so wise. I shall be in touch with YOU, even if I do not hear from you.
I do not need water constantly drip drip dripping on me! I have enough already.
THANK YOU!
THANK YOU, TOM! :=)