Just Venting...Worrying for our parents

I am 30 years old! At my age, we do not think about losing our parents. My father is 51 years old, and he suffered a minor heart attack a week ago. After performing the heart cath, they told us he had 4 blockages that needed to be fixed. So, my father underwent a quadruple bypass surgery on Tuesday. He is still in ICU. He has been suffering from Atrial Fibrillation, high blood sugar, and fluid retention.  Bless his heart, he has always been the one on the other side of the hospital bed.  His wife, my step-mother is a severe type 1 diabetic, and she has been through so many surgeries and hospital stays. He is always so strong for her, but he does not know how to be the patient.  I feel so bad for him. I have been worrying myself sick over the whole situation.  He has been a smoker for 37 years, and I am glad to know that he seems to be sure that he will not pick it back up once he is released from the hospital. My real mother is a smoker, and I am a smoker.  We have all had the same problem, we do not want to quit, but we have always known that we should.  I am going to do my best to quit, and have asked my (real) mother if she will also lay them down. She has told me that she will discuss her quitting options with her doctor when she goes in for her physical.  I pray that she does.  My step-mother is so stressed right now that her blood sugar is all over the place.  She is running high and low, but scarcely normal.  Yesterday morning, she was passed out with her sugar being 20!!!  Earlier in the day it had been 354! She is all out of whack with all the stress and the changes in her normal schedule.  I do not know what to do to try and help her get stabilized.  My father is in ICU worrying about his wife, and I can not make him stop. He loves her so much, and it is second nature for him to worry about her.  I just wish that I could fix it all.  I am praying that my dad will be out of ICU today or tomorrow.  They really need to get him moved to a regular room.  I think we will all be a little less stressed when that happens.  But I do not want them to move him until he is out of the "woods".

Thank you for taking the time to listen to me vent for a while.  It has felt better to actually put some of this into words and share my heartache with you. This is not what I wanted my first written publication to be, but I just kept looking at the link, and it said "Say ANYTHING", so I did.

Thank you again!

Tess