To Burn.

 To Burn.

To be made incapable of burning --  I do fear the fire

thinking of those commandments which I can't abide,

commandment s of      Elohim that I ignore

for the words I could not speak, I might not at once

un-speak, I would be marred so deeply

as to be God and a God who does not speak not to me,

unrecognizable          Brother

you are all day long in the memory
of God           to whom, in

obedience, or
cowardice          let me lift up my hands, that they

might be cut off?

Why did you live?

To what greater purpose?

—or not as  I should, to pray to Him - 

my body be made to tremble. to shake in awe,

in that glut of thankfulness
one welcomes a thing long longed for

thinking of love

enough       either an end to grief      or grief

so terrible it is itself        its end

                             How terrible
the mind is, open       

to the world

and yet it will not be shuttered, even

as in the next room a man cries          mercy
and does not mean it— 

does not this thing fear no empty fire?

 Nor empty desire, this. To be open.

To see Elohim. To feel that closeness.

To feel that...