Sunday morning flitting

Clear minds create..... I like that group.... it gives me permission to take a few minutes and ramble so that I can then - at least in theory - focus on what I'm supposed to be doing.

In an ideal world, that would be finishing up my YA novel, or writing some 200 words-or-less submissions for the Canada Writes contest CBC Radio is entering.... I do want to enter that one...

In my not so ideal world, what I really need to be doing is getting some schoolwork out of the way. I have a proposal due Tuesday, an 8 - 10 page essay due Wednesday for Victorian literature, a 10 page paper re: Shakespeare that should have been done and sent off by now.....  then there's a paper for 20th Century poetry, and another, shorter one for my American Lit class... that one I'm doing re: Ben Franklin, and it's probably the most well developed - in my head, not on paper.... but it's due NEXT week not THIS week so ....

So...I have a bunch of things to be working on and I think that is part of the problem - I'm sick and cranky and am spreading my brain cells too thin..... and, I am aware, I am using way too many of my somewhat limited brain cells to fret about not being able to do everything that needs doing....  would be far better to put a lid on the negative self talk and focus on getting stuff done.

I can do this academic writing ~crap~ ..... otherwise my grades would be a heck of a lot lower than they are, my Honours Essay wouldn't have been accepted in the first place, and I wouldn't have my profs pushing me to go on and consider doing not only an MA but also a PhD....and writing very nice letters supporting my applications both for grad school and for scholarships.

I can write this paper. The proposal. Now.

The rest can all wait until this one is done. I am going to get a rough draft done. Then I'm going to take a time out to write one entry for Canada Writes. And submit it. And then - and only then - I will start to focus on the VicLit paper. And I then I shall try another entry .....and then tackle something else .... well, after a time out for some more gathering of course :)