by Esther IS Flesh and Blood S.
Member since:
May 8, 2007

Is That All There Is??

September 24, 2007 03:50 AM UTC (Updated: September 24, 2007 05:49 AM UTC)
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Is that all there is?

Is that all there is?

And if thats all there is my friends

Then lets keep dancing

Lets bring out the booze

And have a ball

If thats all...there is...

 

Words from an old song by Peggy Lee from the '60's, which has always stayed in my mind since the very first time that I heard it as a little girl.  Something about the words and tune just run through my mind over and over lately.  Maybe its my illness right now that has me feeling melancholy and even afraid of the inevitable...

 

Comments: 66

Svetlana Goryacheva Sep 24, 2007, 3:57am UTC
There's much more than that... cheer up, my dear friend! ;-)

Still praying for your "quick and speedy" recovery -

Love and hugs - S.
Jennifer K. Sep 24, 2007, 3:58am UTC
This is a bit sad! But nothing is as it first seems...sorry to hear you are not well!
Hi Esther, this doesn't sound like the little optimist I've come to know, hoping things get better...
Lela M. Sep 24, 2007, 4:09am UTC
I'm sorry that you're not feeling well too. I hope your recovery is quick and that you are back to your old self in no time.
Matt Clark Sep 24, 2007, 4:13am UTC
Hey Esther, great words here..stay strong, we all have that in us (I know it's easier said than done)

:)
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J W. Sep 24, 2007, 4:16am UTC
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Lisa Frost Bailey Sep 24, 2007, 4:18am UTC
Esther, you are always such a bright and friendly spirit that i truly hate to hear you are troubled. You have inspired many to get a grip and stand up for themselves, and what they wear..(j/k though those articles were funny!). I pray your spirit is lifted to soar where it belongs, in the heavens with God!
Karl Leuba Sep 24, 2007, 4:30am UTC
When I was about 9 I thought the quote was "Hope Springs infernal in the human heart. Esther, what you need is a little rethinking. If that's all there is, it is all you need. Now, start thinking about what you want. I suspect that health is one of the things you hope for. Keep reaching for it.
When the farmer down the road from us had a cow get away and drop a calf. His 12 year old son carried the newborn about a quarter mile back to the pasture. After that, every day Everett would pick that calf up and carry it around the pasture. He said he would be able to carry a full grown cow if he kept at it. Well he never got strong enough to carry a cow, But the day he won the state wrestling championship my dad said, that is what happens when you work for a goal, Even if you never can carry a full grown cow.
Cori Anders Sep 24, 2007, 4:47am UTC
That's not all there is! No way! So, bring out the drinks and party anyway though! There's always time for that! :)

Hope you feel better soon!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 4:52am UTC
Svetlana - Thank you my dear friend. You are love personified.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 4:53am UTC
Jennifer - Thanks!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 4:57am UTC
Randee - The glass is always half full but there are times in ones lives that bring you to your knees and you realize how very vulnerable we really are.

Thanks for caring Randee dear!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:08am UTC
Lela - Thanks alot for the kind words.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:09am UTC
Matt - You are very special and thank you for understanding.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:10am UTC
Birdie - That was VERY nice of you hon! If I could remember that every day I wouldn't feel the way I do now. One day you're here and the next you're not!

PEACE!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:11am UTC
J - Thank you!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:14am UTC
Lisa - I am happy to hear that some of my sillyness has paid off. I love to laugh and make others laugh whenever I can and every chance that I can. I just don't feel like smiling or laughing right now. This too shall pass with the grace of God.

Thanks for lifting me from the depths of darkness.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:19am UTC
Karl - Thank you for the words of wisdom my friend. I don't think that I would be able to carry that calf whatsoever right now nor can I even think of winning a wrestling match right now...lol! See you've made me smile now lest my face turn to stone with a frown on it.

I will continue to rethink as you have suggested and I know what the answers are already as I have for many years now but have just kept on thinking that tomorrow things would change and now I know that I am at the crossroads and I don't believe that all of the wishing and praying can ever take me to where I once was, nor where I wish I was. Life is too short and precious to waste on being unhappy and being abused over and over again.

Thanks Karl!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 5:20am UTC
Cori - You know you are very special to me.

I thank you!
donna h. Sep 24, 2007, 6:11am UTC
feel better
Heather - child of God, C. Sep 24, 2007, 6:20am UTC
I know the song well and it has run through my mind at times. There is more Esther, much much more on earth and in heaven. It is a tough time right now but you need to concentrate on making it through. yea though I walk though the valley of the shadow, yes shadow of death, I shall fear NO evil...

Fear no evil and keep your hopes up. Some of the medicines might be making you low, I know pain medicine after my arm operation had me low of low but once I was off the meds.... are you taking an antidepressant, if not you should, but be aware it takes time for it to help you. Remember you are in our prayers and we love you.

It feels like, is that all there is, but believe me, it's not honey, it's not. If you want to talk, I'm here, sweetheart.
Danielle P. Sep 24, 2007, 6:24am UTC
I've just come out of the darkest season in my life. There is always hope and when there is not there is hope in faith. Even when you can't hope God will carry you and if you have faith, the faith will carry you until you can hope again.
Hang in there and as Marianne said Be still.
Fred Hose Sep 24, 2007, 7:56am UTC
It's funny Esther those are the words that I thought that I asked God when I was in a coma.
In my mind I thought that His reply was "No. I have something in mind for you."

I think that His reply to you would be the same.
Denise B. Sep 24, 2007, 8:09am UTC
there is more, just look around you. feel better
Bonnie C. Sep 24, 2007, 8:14am UTC
Feel better soon! I am currently in a "funk" myself...
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:38am UTC
Marianne - Thanks for your words of kindness. Mere words can not express how I feel about you!
Robert C D. Sep 24, 2007, 8:38am UTC
Ester, First let me wish you godspeed in your recovery... I too love this song, and being a big Peggy Lee fan and blues fan, I have sung this .... life is about fun and laughter, commoradery and love. Reflection should be only to put everything in perspective...remember the saying by that great poet Bob Dylan, life is what happens while your busy making plans
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:38am UTC
Donna - Thanks!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:44am UTC
Heather - I had a horrible time last night, then went to bed upset and got up upset around 2-3 am. I went back to bed and just got up again before 6:30 and still feel the heaviness in my heart as well as the pain in my chest, stomach from the shots, left arm pain attributed to the pulmonary embolism and still a somewhat numb left hand. I do believe that this shall pass but I am not used to not doing the things that I so love to do. Yes I am taking an anti-depressant with the vicodin, lovenox, and coumadin. Not a good combination but I must do what I must do as per doctor's orders.

Heather, I don't know what I would do without you in my life. Thank you my dear friend.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:45am UTC
Danielle - Thank you for your words of wisdom and thank you for caring.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:49am UTC
Sue - Thank you for sticking around dear, I am happy that you are. I do have faith in God and do believe in the power of prayer. I know that this will soon pass. It has been a very long time since I felt this bad so I'm still looking at the glass half full. I know God has a purpose for me in this life and so will continue to ask for help from him and guidance in this time of need.

I appreciate you!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:51am UTC
Shruthi - I will try to remember to stay positive in my outlook of my life. Thanks for giving me the positive energy to continue fighting this lingering heavy heart.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:52am UTC
Fred - Thank you, I do believe that you are right. I still believe that there is more to my life than being an Interior Decorator...
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:53am UTC
Denise - Thank you!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:54am UTC
Bonnie - Thank you! Hope you are up and attem real soon! :)
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 8:57am UTC
Robert - I am glad that you and others recognize the song and know the words to it to recognize where I am coming from. The song always makes me sad and in doing so it doesn't make me feel better it just builds to the crescendo(sp) which is my heart.

Thank you for the kind words and the words of Bob Dylan.
Tina b. Sep 24, 2007, 9:31am UTC
All right sister. Put a smile on your face, even if you feel like crying. Life is what you make it. It is up to you to find it in yourself to pick yourself up and brush yourself off and get on with the business of living.
Count your blessings one by one and work on your relationships. Firstly, love yourself. Secondly, cherish your existing your family and friends.
These people love you and help you gain strength.
Then, Get busy and do Gods' work and you will be feeling better soon.
Peace and Blessings to you, friend.
Pamela Tyree Griffin Sep 24, 2007, 9:47am UTC
Hang in there!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 10:17am UTC
Tina - Thanks for the great advice! I appreciate them and YOU!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 24, 2007, 10:18am UTC
Pamela - I appreciate you concern, new connection and hopefully new friend of mine.

Thanks!
Donna Hammett-Tooker Sep 24, 2007, 12:04pm UTC
Self-examination is all-too-often a full-time occupation when we are side-lined by illness or feeling depressed. Put your microscope away and read a book, reread your favorite book. Get out the photo album and say hello to some memories you haven't visited in a while and get all of the negativity out ASAP so the good times have a place to reside when they come knocking. Hills and valleys are normal and sometimes one or the other is longer than realized so the travelling gets bogged down and we get tired of waiting for Life's AAA service to get there. Sit back and enjoy the lull. Have a mental picnic and even enjoy the ants - watch them as they work hard - and when the problem with your transportation is solved, you'll be ready to hop back on and ride back up to the top.
HGM Moya Goatley Sep 24, 2007, 2:22pm UTC
It's the unexpected that makes life so special. You catch sight of sunshine creating delicate, filigree jewelry from a spider's web. From silence you hear a child's gurgling giggle. A friend smiles at you. A food you habitually eats tastes particularly good. You realise you have lots of friends on Gather. They're nice, the things that happen out of the blue. I wish you many. Moya
Larry H. Sep 24, 2007, 2:23pm UTC
thanks for sharing.
Joe W. Sep 24, 2007, 3:37pm UTC
A very close friend of mine once told me that perspective is reality. When I questioned him he explained that what our perspective is at any given moment in time defines or reality for that moment. But the key is that it only applies for that moment. The next moment our perspective can and often does change. Point being that we need to be careful not to allow a temporary condition of being down or being depressed to cloud our thinking into making us believe that it is permanent and to remember that when our perspective changes our attitude will change as well.

As you can see, there appear to be numerous people who care about you. I am certain that this extends out of cyberspace and into f2f life as well. So while none of us likes to be ill, remember that it is temporary and that the answer to your question is, "No! That's not all there is! There's much, much more. And I want to enjoy every minute of every day soaking it up."

I'm praying that you will be able to feel God's love and become stronger for knowing that you have His love and you have people pulling for you. I pray for rich blessings & health for you....
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~Lady Neeetah of California~Obama #44 W. Sep 24, 2007, 3:43pm UTC
Peggy Lee is not the last word on the clock

(tick tock)

Your clock has a loooong way to go!
Feel better, I too know the song and things happen in our lives that we have absolutely no control over. It's not all there is.
Marilyn (I understand)
denise e Sep 24, 2007, 7:19pm UTC
i think that it is time to put on some new music and get inspired in a positive way again.
Robert - just a simple man - B. Sep 24, 2007, 7:53pm UTC
Esther,
You know I love you and I know that you know, 'that is not all there is'. You're feeling blue and we all have that right (albeit, that need) once and a while. Some of us even more than others. I was sitting at my desk this morning and turned my head in time to see one spectacular sunrise come over the horizon - that's all the proof I need; there is always so much more to life than we realize. And all of it is for our enjoyment. Please smile and tell yourself you're a lovely woman. I know it, you know it and anyone that sees your photo knows it.
Patry Francis Sep 24, 2007, 10:12pm UTC
You have a beautiful smile, and I can feel your lovely spirit. Sending good thoughts to you!
*Carol ~Bronx Southern Belle Y. Sep 24, 2007, 11:44pm UTC
I love that song when i'm depressed. A good Emily Dickinson poem will do it, too. But it sounds like you need to be singing "It's beginning to look alike like Christmas." Because, tomorrow, tomorrow there's always tomorrow. Tomorrow's a Day Away.
El Toro Bravo de Amor Sep 25, 2007, 9:13am UTC
Absolutely not. There is also Mexican food. Girlfriend, you need carnitas!
Debby O. Sep 25, 2007, 10:15am UTC
Just keep looking up darlin, it will be okay. We all have these times. God bless you.
Sharon A. Sep 25, 2007, 12:28pm UTC
Last year, was the darkest year of my life. I had gone into a Mall, and had two seizures. I have had small episodes before, but none like this. To make a long story short my friend, I could not leave the house for months. I had to re-train my brain to go back out into the world. It took hard work, and I can definately understand how you feel.

I just want you to know that we all have had these times, my dear. We all have our little secrets---you are not alone. I can walk into the stores now, and most of the time, I can stay. Try to stay calm. I ordered a hypnosis CD---I think it did wonders for me- and I think you can just go on-line and order one for yourself---all you have to do is lay there and listen. I bet you will feel much better if you do!!! Hey, I couldn't leave the house without the fear of God. Now, I don't think about it too often.
Sheila Deeth Sep 25, 2007, 11:56pm UTC
Thank I vaguely remember the song. But whatever "that" is, there's always more and better to look forward to.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 26, 2007, 12:40am UTC
Lyla - The words written in this editorial are words from the song by Peggy Lee indeed. I appreciate your thoughts and recommendations on how to help me through this.

Thanks.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 26, 2007, 12:41am UTC
Reena - Thank you sweetie, I like you too!
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 26, 2007, 12:45am UTC
Moya - Thank you so much for your kind words. I can only get better with the kindness of so many of you here on Gather, and in my life outside of Gather. You are right, I am quite surprised at the outpouring of love and concern for me here...and I am all too grateful my friend.

Thanks again!
Dde Ahzos Sep 26, 2007, 12:45am UTC
Spiritual journey.... that is what I see on your horizon. A journey within will open doors to what can be. Best wishes, dear.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. Sep 26, 2007, 12:46am UTC
Larry - Thanks.
Krystal Harwell Mar 24, 2009, 10:52pm UTC
going thru your stuff to replay your kindness, even if i've seen it before!!

<3 Krystal

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