Outside the box

I am a very by the book kind of person.  I obey most laws(those speeding ones are hard) and I do things I am told.  Most things I am suppose to and most of the time I don't question authority.  I am very curious and if I can ask in a non threatening way why something is done, I do ask, but most of the time I just cruise along with the masses.

 In comes my boyfriend Chris.  He is so far outside the box that we need a rope just to keep him near.  He always questions authority and why stuff is done a certain way.  He is always dancing to his own beat.  It has caused him some friction in his life with people not always accepting him as he is, but he he doesn't care.  He learned from a young age to be true to himself.  He doesnt try to hurt people by being him, he is just him.

The mix of the two of us is very interesting.  I keep him near the box and he tries to pull me out.  He is teaching me to be me and not worry what others think of me all the time.  I have lived my life up until now based totally on what others think of me or what they expect of me.  I have learned the very very hard way that I was not living my authentic life. 

I am now trying to live authentically and my extended family does not like it.  I truly have found out who my friends are and that the foundation of family that I thought I had no matter what was truly a mirage.    I managed to keep a few friends and those who are with me are treasured, those that have gone, I say Godspeed. 

You have to have courage when you start to climb out of the box, so far with a little help I'm making it.