The life we live upon this earth is our journey alone and we are here for whatever reason it is that we are. We don't know the answers and they may or may not be available to us on the other side. We ponder the existense of god or we believe in reincarnation but either way no matter what we all know we are here now and we have to get through this thing.
Along the way, our lives touch other lives and they affect our health, our happiness, our sanity, our insanity. We are surrounded by people everywhere and unless you live and die in one room all your life, you will be blessed or cursed by other peoples companionship at certain times. Our mothers are our first link to another life and then we expand into family. At some point along the way you are bound to make friends.
Then one day, you meet someone that touches something in you, a feeling that those believing in reincarnation say is finding a soul you used to know but those who don't just say it's a fate thing, a feeling that this is right and good. Our children in this generation would call this person their BFF, best friend forever. You can say, your best friend, because most of reading this don't use that BFF thing. For me, I found my soulmate.
Most people dream of meeting their soulmate and usually in terms of usage that means the man/woman of their dreams and they are perfect for each other and they live happily as spouses all the days of their lives. It's all fine and good and this does happen in some cases, in my opinion. That didn't happen with me.
Mine is someone I love with all my heart but she's not married to me and heck, I'm not even attracted to her sexually sorry to say which I know is just fine with her. I have known her since as far back as my memory goes and she is almost a year younger than me. Our mother's were friends so we'd go visit her family from time to time.
We grew up for the first seven years of my life seeing each other a few times a year and we were inseparable when we were together. We were both blond at that age and called ourselves twins. Whenever she would be upset, I got upset that she was made upset.
I moved away from the states when I was seven but when we got back in contact through letters a few years later, it started back like we'd never really been apart. When I came to visit and got to see her for a short period of time, once again it was like two halves reunited.
Now, we've moved into adulthood and along the way we've gotten pregnant together three times at around the same time. Her marriage to her husband now was only six months before I got married. We've been through many similar experiences over the years and I call her whenever I need to hear some calming advice or a listening ear. We are 300 miles or so apart everyday but I know and think of her often. She is my sanity, my other half. I don't care how cheesy it may sound but I want to let her know.....
"Jennifer, you complete me!"
P.S. This is also a way to uniquely introduce you to my friend who is a new member of gather as of yesterday. Please welcome her. :D