
Good morning, writers!
This morning, I'm reposting an article about the feelings that whoosh over you when you type "the end." I'd love to hear from you either through the comments below - or in your own new article. Tell us how you feel when you finish a manuscript.
Take care, enjoy the last of summer's bounty, and write like the wind!
Aaron
Advice for Writers: Typing "The End"
There is a time in every author's life when he or she experiences a sudden pang of loss, and sweet sorrow descends like soggy tissues on a broken heart.
Man or woman, romance or action writer, sensitive poet or straight-shootin' scene churner, it hits us one and all.
It's the moment we reach at the end of our long suffering days, those focused, driven, passionate hours, plastered with outpourings of words that evolved into our current work in process. The moment we type "The End."
It happens to all of us. Sometimes, there's a delayed reaction, and suddenly it sneaks up to slay us, the next day. Macho man or lyrical lady, none are immune.
In my case, I don't actually burst into tears. But my throat tightens, a lump forms, and I fight back moisture that puddles and threatens to overflow.
My God. It's over. What will I write tomorrow?
Of course, I know what I'll write next. I have pages full of books begging to be written, and each vies for attention weeks before the finish line comes into view. Articles crop into my head that have simmered for weeks. Cover designs lure like Sirens to the Photoshop Rocks, and I ache to try something new. Perhaps a psychological suspense, or a saucy romance?
What really happens is a tearing apart of a bond that forms between one's heart and one's work. It's an invisible tug, a feeling of companionship about to be severed. This place that has become a refuge from life, this world with new friends, emotive scenes, and free adrenaline rushes - is suddenly balled up into a wad of virtual paper and tossed off the cliff into the next realm: the editing, or polishing phase. Which just doesn't have the same allure, you know?
A few months ago I experienced this sensation for the eleventh time. It was a nostalgic kind of sadness, a choking momentary paralysis reminiscent of stolen memories from childhood or the loss of a loved one. I finished Lady Blues, the ninth in the LeGarde mystery series.
I admit I am obsessed. I hover over this parallel universe like a frantic father, controlling and finagling events for Gus LeGarde and his family to navigate through until they scream for help. Sometimes, I'm kind. And sometimes, I'm not.
On the topic of series writing: I'll let you in on a little secret.
Do you write series that critics might react to with words like, "How can so many things happen to one guy?"
If so, try this trick. Tell the naysayers they must "employ the suspension of disbelief." It makes them stop for a minute to ponder, it is actually true for any type of fictional venue, and it makes you sound really literary.
If that doesn't work, tell them, "Hey. It's fiction. It's supposed to be entertainment, not a reality show." Of course, our fictional works are often more authentic than contrived TV shows, anyway. If they're still being silly about it, tell them to go buy a manual on brake replacement.
Even though I am a series writer who gets to "keep" his characters from book to book, there is always a feeling of loss when I finish a work, because I feature new characters from the local community in each successive piece. The main cast of characters are ever-present. I'll never lose them, thank God, unless I purposefully kill them off, and they do provide an immeasurable amount of comfort. I feel deeply for each one, I know them inside and out, and I treasure every scene I share with them. Okay, that sounds a bit hokey, but it's true.
But the featured characters usually don't come back. They flit in and out of Gus's life, providing wonderful counterpoint or drama, need or redemption, and then... they're gone. Oh, occasionally I mention them down the road, but it's not my practice to bring them back. Just as my hero, John D. MacDonald never reintroduced Travis McGee's lovers (he usually killed them off, much to my disappointment), each new episode thrust a needy client or vicious villain into our view for just...one...book.
And so, last month, when I sat alone in the dark room with my sticky-hot laptop humming as it shut down, a sense of loss hit me. Hard.
I would spend no more evenings with Kip Sterling, the octogenarian who lost his memory on the night Glenn Miller mysteriously disappeared, the jazz era "music man," shoveled from nursing home to nursing home for the past sixty years, with no family or real identity until Gus LeGarde befriended him and began to dig deeply into his past.

Or Bella Dubois, Kip's Nubian black lover who crooned bluesy tunes in Harlem between secret trysts with Kip, her beloved piano player. I had fallen hard for Bella, just as Kip did, and imagined wonderful blue smoke-filled nightclubs with her purring at the microphone in a slinky green dress that sparkled and shifted like surf on the beach. Never mind that I hate smoke and can't stomach the stench of it, I suppressed that little bit of truth to imagine the romance of the era.
And what about Debbie, the feisty, stout nurse who used to be a dancer, with penny red curls and a sense of righteous justice, who would not bend beneath threats from Novacom, the evil drug company? I grew quite fond of her fiery courage.
Or my most recent favorite, Lucy Sedgewick, the gay ex-FBI agent-turned-woodworker, who partnered up with Gus to save the lives of Debbie and Kip when the power of the mighty dollar turned against them. Gus and she shared the loss of their beloved partners through cancer, and the bond between them had just begun to cement toward the end of the book.
Maybe I'll bring Lucy back. Or perhaps she'll get her own book some day. It's definitely on the list.
So, what do you do when you type "The End?" Do you put your work aside for a while, go out and live life for a few weeks? I've done that a few times. Sometimes it's plain necessary to recharge the creative juices.
Or, do you immediately turn back to chapter one to polish the manuscript and look for inconsistencies before you send it out to your critique partners or inner circle of pre-readers? Alternatively, do you put your manuscript aside for a year to let it simmer, while you blast through a few more novels?
I've done it both ways. Normally, I set it aside for at least six months, and give in to my massive craving for "creating new." Then, when I've forgotten most of what I wrote (don't laugh, I'm serious!), I return to it and am both delighted and horrified at what I've written. That's when the real roll-up-your-sleeves editing begins.
My advice is to discover what works for you through trial and error. There's no hard and fast rule about dealing with this hand-off, and no unwritten rule that you must deal with it the same every time.
Most importantly, whether or not you need a hiatus in which you reconnect to family or friends, be sure to return to writing as soon as possible. Whether it's an article, like this, or the start of your next best-seller, keep writing. Don't ever stop. Give us more, and steam ahead to forge those new bonds that will hopefully return you to the tissues the next time you type "The End."
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Aaron Paul Lazar works as an engineer by day but can be found on weekends in his gardens with his two toddler sidekicks, grandsons Julian and Gordon. His passion lies in writing, where he has created eleven books with characters of depth, color and substance. Lazar entices readers with intricate plots, lush imagery, breathless action, gourmet meals, classical music, bountiful gardens and surprising romantic moments.
Mr. Lazar also writes monthly columns for the Futures Mystery Anthology Magazine, Voice in the Dark newsletter, and The Back Room ezine and has been published often in Absolute Write. He lives in Upstate NY with his extended family. Visit his websites at:
www.legardemysteries.com; www.mooremysteries.com, and his blog at www.aaronlazar.blogspot.com.
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tangible somehow.
Cray and his team strained against the boundaries of physics to achieve what others could only dream of. To relax, as driven and creative people often do, they worked on hobbies. One of the more popular company sponsored hobbies was to design and construct wooden C-Class racing scows - sailboats.
Teams of Cray Research employees would spend the winter and spring designing and crafting these boats. In the summer, they would tune and race them. Every autumn, when it came time to take the boats out of the water, they would celebrate with a company-wide picnic.
At the picnic, after celebrating with beer and brats, the teams would wade into the lake, lug their boats out of the water and place them on sawhorses. The boats were then doused with gasoline and burned.
The lesson was clear. To be innovative one must be ready to burn one's pride and start afresh.
Please do not take this as a criticism of retaining a beloved character, rather as a nod toward the wisdom of letting go.
I never feel a sense of loss at the end of non-fiction articles. I suppose it's because I know there are a trillion more stories out there just begging to be told.
However, when I wrote a manuscript of romantic suspense, the emotions were totally different. My reaction, Aaron, was similiar to yours, yet different. Your Gift To Me is a mystical love story that celebrates the healing power of love, laughter and unconditional friendship to overcome grief.
Because that storyline involves deeply emotional scenes, I knew it had to have comic relief. I created a character named New Orleans "N'awlins" Harrison...named for the city in which her parents conceived her. She is totally outrageous, but wise in the ways of the world and of love. She's best friend to my female protagonist.
I didn't cry at the END of my manuscript...however, I DID cry at the end of the chapter where I put N'awlins on an airplane in Honolulu and sent her off to Washington D.C. I knew that was the last time she would walk across my pages. It was a totally unsuspected emotion that sucker-punched me.
What I hadn't counted on, was that N'awlins would keep screaming funny "lines" in my head, demanding a larger role in the story.
To get her to stop yelling at me, I had to compromise and give her a few more choice lines...
Aaron, dropping a 10 on my way out the door...thanks for a wonderful memory of a bitter-sweet day in the life of this writer. --bon
Unlike you, dear writing friend with a prolific muse, I don't have ideas cropping up to simmer ... instead I must wait for one to take seed -- much like a pregnant woman usually doesn't know she is pregnant until she starts experiencing the side-effects of her pregnancy.
But how glad I am that you are a series writer Aaron, one who brings back old characters while introducing new ones. And how doubly glad, because I'm secretly in love with Gus and would resist anyone taking his place.
I have since resolved the problem of "the final farewell" by simply keeping multiple irons in the fire - or Works In Progress going at all times. Currently I am working on three different manuscripts and marketing on several others besides. I don't have time to get sentimental with my characters, no matter how much I may enjoy them. (I only hope agents/pubs/readers enjoy them as much and I go on to the next thing.
I do have some inkling though, into the sense of loss and being slightly disoriented for a while. I participated in pulling together a family reunion, which was to be just one of many for the Yorkshire 2000 celebration in the Tantramar region of New Brunswick/Nova Scotia. My husband's family TRUEMAN have been holding family reunions since 1875 so there was a lot of historical data to pull together.
Our committee prepared for two years in advance of the actual event, which was to be part of a 3 day celebration. The time was filled with consultation, writing, preparation and proof-reading and finally the prepared for events took place. I was so wound up that I bustled around all day long and never even got to meet many of the relatives who had come from all over the continent.
Suddenly it was over and I felt let down, deflated and exhausted. For the next few months there were some tidying up details to work on with new family data we had been given on the actual day, but after that nothing. I spent quite some time pulling myself together and trying to figure out how to occupy my time.
Thanks for your interesting article. :-)
I know that I kept going back over and over and over and even after 3 friends helped edit it for me, I still went back over it and found a couple of missed words or errors............... I finally just closed my eyes, backed the manuscript to a disc and took it to the printers as it was or I would never have seen it in print.
As it is.....I still found a couple of errors..........;-)))
I cannot imagine what it must feel like to write a novel and feel the accomplishment, the elation and yet the sadness of typing "The End" - heady stuff!
That is until you realize that the long journey of editing as just begun :) And that is where I am now- editing and writing the next. A time away is necessary to objectively view my work- I need space, I need to forget, to want to relearn, get reintroduced to my characters and take the journey anew.
I wrote one novel. I keep reviewing it, after revisiing it 13 times.
I took it out the other day, and I cried! I never cry, and I cried!
Whenever I send out a query, my stomach turns.
I have two outlines for the next two novels...this lessens the pain. Bittersweet... I never felt anything like it before, it is like breaking up with someone you have known for years.
If you have a manuscript, you will not rest until it is finished. I noticed some people on here are STILL not finishing what they started. :). Get on with it soldiers!!!! Be scared, and do it anyway!!!
Great article Aaron. Good luck to the rest who are avoiding the fact that they are WRITERS. How dare you keep your great reads from the rest of us! We need great works of art out there.
Click on my name and look at the last article I published....
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I've written two novels and I still don't feel I'm come close an official 'the end'. I'll keep tweaking and re-writing until something is in print ;-)