Back from the Left Coast

I flew in from Santa Barbara via Phoenix at 5:30 yesterday morning, and my luggage joined me here at work today at 10 am, after spending the night in Los Vegas. Rather than being upset at the mixup--I got rerouted and the suitcase didn't--I am just very happy that all my stuff and dirty clothes are here.

I've been getting caught up on the things at work that other folks can't do, and wondering why nobody has been crosstrained to do my job. It's just as well, of course, because that way, my job feels safer. Of course, I can be replaced by a computer program, so I am looking for ways to increase my value to the college where I work.

Now is a good time to redefine how I want my work life to be and to reshape my job to use my talents and skills more effectively. Am I scared of this opportunity? You bet! In the past I have just made quick choices from whatever scant alternatives presentend themselves, but now I am looking for the clarity and inner guidance to tell me what to do next.

It is hard to meditate and allow the thoughts to come to me rather than chasing them down. Of course, I tend to do a lot more chasing than catching, so the old process is much more stressful than effective. I am learning to listen for the slight inspiration, the little suggestion that brings me closer to understanding what my next step can be. That's how I work my fairy godmother magic.

What do I want now? What is fun to do? What can I learn next?

Where is there a need? What could fulfill it? Can I do it?

These are new questions for me to ponder, not being stuck in poverty consciousness, not worrying about the next paycheck, not stressing out over what might happen, but visualizing what could happen and feeling my way through it.