I have been through many different things in my life, and I have made mistakes. It is part of being human. Many of the mistakes I made early in life have directly resulted in my life being what it is today. While I regret the mistakes, there are many parts of it I don’t regret. I would not trade my kids for anything. (no Missy, not even on their worst days, I would only think about it a LONG TIME) I consider myself truly blessed by my children in many ways. Through my son, I have learned patience, interpretation, to value honesty, timing, and to not take myself too seriously. Through my daughter, I have learned to see both sides of a coin, organization, I can dress in something other than polo shirts, I did pass on some good things, and sometimes it is okay to tell people they did something wrong. Both of my kids have taught me that I am more than I thought I was to start with in life. Yet, to look at us, what would you see? A family struggling to survive. I am on medical leave, and have been for almost 8 weeks now. I don’t qualify for assistance because of being a federal employee, but I am not getting a paycheck. My daughter is working 2 jobs, and going to school. My son is working odd jobs, and temp jobs while trying to find a permanent job in the auto-body industry, and his wife gets a small disability income because of her learning disability, while she is trying to be trained enough to be able to find work. Meanwhile, my medical bills though not large thanks to my insurance are still rising, as are our bills, and so does Melissa’s school needs list. I am just between. The doctor is trying to decide if my condition is able to be stabilized or not. It is a birth defect. Basically, it causes my blood pressure to bounce out of control and the more I do, the more it jumps up and down until it triggers something and I pass out completely. It doesn’t take very long to get to that point any more. I am now back to being able to do things at home, but not much before I have to stop at sit back at rest at home. Why do I bring this up? Well, I have recently had it suggested that I must not be following God, if I am in this situation. If I were a better steward and following all of God’s commands, I would be comfortable and fine. The person that said this? A minister. So my question to you, my friends is this, Can a person be poor, and undergoing financial hardships and still be following God’s Will?
Let me say that I am not easily offended. I do not consider agreement a personal attack, I would consider it a reason for me to consider what I am missing in my life. But I suggest to you that you would also think about what you are saying about things without thinking when you make judgments on people when you don’t realize how it affects those around you too.