by Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W.
Member since:
September 6, 2006

Self Loathing With a Difference

June 25, 2007 01:18 AM EDT
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So few understand this change,

The depth of differences entailed,

From happy, friendly, insane type,

To hiding, damaged man, body failed,

From the laughter, fun, and craziness,

To the wimper of pain and dispair,

The differences alive within me now,

With growing pain making it harder to care. 

 

 

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Comments: 26

Michele (Misha) B. Jun 25, 2007, 1:28am EDT
It's sad but it's a really good poem. It must be so frustrating. I'm glad you are on gather, I really like your writing. :)
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 2:28am EDT
Fighting off a migraine....I hope, anyway. It's sort of off and on, as I dose it, and they are caused by the upper neck disc problems I have, from a long ago work related accident that also left me on a disability. I have some pretty inconvenient osteo arthritis issues, also related to that incident, and no, I didn't, as I have a lot of tramadol, hydrocodone, etc. left overs from when I was still insured, for now. I wouldn't mind an email with your source and particulars though, as these aren't going to last forever. I'm skeptical, though, of painkillers sold over the net, even with their own doctor prescribing. Rip offs are rampant, but if they work for you, I assume the source you have is a good one, and I'd be interested in knowing it.
Tanya P. Jun 25, 2007, 2:30am EDT
Keep them pouring out, Ron.
Tanya P. Jun 25, 2007, 2:32am EDT
Ron, have you ever written the details of your accident in past writings? If you have, can you point me to the article...........and if you haven't, will you?
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 2:34am EDT
Michele,
You have no idea what the days that are good, and all the good people like yourself that support me here, mean to me. I couldn't make it through, without you guys to jack around with here. You weren't supposed to read this though. I thought I was sneaking it in in the middle of the night when no one would catch it that worries about me.
Tanya P. Jun 25, 2007, 2:44am EDT
You know people who don't worry about you?? How about that.
Missy Cline Jun 25, 2007, 2:47am EDT
*hugs Ron and Buddy* Hope you are feeling better Ron! Buddy! Quit licking my ear!
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 2:55am EDT
No, but a lot that don't know me, and don't care. hey Missy. I might as well published this at noon, I guess.
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 3:08am EDT
No Tanya, I haven't. I don't think that people really want to hear stories like that, eyes glaze over when I try to in real life, plus it is very hard to explain, unless you are familiar with the job I did, and the equipment it involved, what happened to me.
Lydia O. Jun 25, 2007, 7:28am EDT
You might try writing it in the third person, Ron--as though it happened to someone else. I think I know what Tanya's getting at, maybe, it can give some easing and some distance to put your nightmares down where you can manipulate them, instead of the other way around. You don't even have to give it to us to read, but writing it might be something that would help.
hang in there bud.

we're here for ya, you been here for us.. write the story!
I hope you're feeling better this morning.
Olga M. Jun 25, 2007, 10:37am EDT
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I hope you are feeling better today. It sounds like we have lots of company, don't we. Well, like I say, I am just so grateful not to be forced to subjugate myself and stand on my aching legs all day for $9.00 an hour which is the only kind of work I ever did, that I feel like I've gone to heaven. It's almost like I feel like saying" NOW tell me I can't sit down. NOW tell me I'm not even allowed to lean. I've even got a little SCOOTER if I want, so there. I'm finally getting my life's reward.
Sue * Jun 25, 2007, 10:47am EDT
Nice try to sneak it in...did you think we wouldn't find it this morning? For meds...how about that $4 thing I see Walmart does for people. I have no idea how it works...but, I do hear that there are those that get generic drugs that way, cheap. I'm sure you have tried physical therapy, pain clinics etc. for the injury. I'm just sorry that you suffer so much with this. I can't help but think that sleeping on the couch so often would make it worse. I get a migraine if I flop on the couch for too long because of the way my neck is positioned...and I have no injury. Just a thought. Hang in there.
t b. Jun 25, 2007, 12:26pm EDT
Hmmmm, reading these comments I have to shake my head. I am almost afraid to say that I thought Sue was talking to Ron, not making a remark at any one else.
Dont jump me please, I already got my first F You letter this morning.
Must be something in the air.....

Ron, as a person who used to have migranes, and a fellow chronic pain sufferer,
and as your friend..... Im sending you a large bubble of hugs and relief.
Listen to Sue about the couch, she may have a valid point there.
Feel better....t
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 2:31pm EDT
Everyone that has expressed their concerns about me, thank you, both for your kind words about the poem, and your wishes for me. I truly appreciate the concern, but I wish I was free to write about this without worrying anyone.
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 2:50pm EDT
Now, as for you Elinor,
I have very little patience for your type. I didn't set you up as my spiritual guide in any life I know about, and those of you that take it upon yourself to preach at others, usually need a little preaching to yourselves. Of course I don't write in the middle of a migraine, no one could. As for your thinking you know crap about me, and when I should be thankful, piss off. I am thankful, for maxalt and imitrex and tramadol and oxycodone, and medical science as far as it has gotten, but you can take your ignorant fundie bs, and pedal it someplace else, or better yet, just don't pedal it here at all. No one on gather wants or needs your approval as Saint Elinor, I'm pretty sure.
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 3:48pm EDT
Amelie,
Great, I surrender kiddo.
elizabeth e. Jun 25, 2007, 6:59pm EDT
...it is wonderful that you can express yourself so well in a poem hwen you are in pain...i don't think I could...i'd probably be huddled up on the couch with a blanket covering my head!
Pat M. Jun 25, 2007, 7:06pm EDT
I don't worry about you Ron. Well, maybe a little Clintonesque "I feel your pain."
But I do sympahise, and I know that letting it out is often a great release, so go for it.
And remember, it's always midday somewhere in the world...
:-)
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 25, 2007, 11:10pm EDT
AKKK, I hadn't thought of that, Pat. Oh well, you can see what good it did me anyway. lol
Michele (Misha) B. Jun 25, 2007, 11:31pm EDT
You can't sneak one past us, Ron, gatherers never sleep. Alright, maybe we do a bit, but we're always on the lookout for new articles. I'm a night owl, up at all hours, lucky if I get 6 straight hours of sleep a night.
Ron (in complete sheeple overload) W. Jun 26, 2007, 12:38am EDT
Come on guys, I said I surrender, for craps sakes. lol
Mary (diet dr pepper junkie) T. Jun 26, 2007, 4:09am EDT
"...gratitude would be a better remedy for sharing..." is she SERIOUS????? good grief.
Karolyn Q. Jun 26, 2007, 7:27am EDT
Good poem. I hope you are feeling better.
Shelbia C. Jul 4, 2007, 5:54am EDT
Great poem.

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