I Want To Go Home

I want to go home. I have been here long enough. I want to be back to where I belong. I have done all I set out to do. I had my time in the fun and the sun. I got a well needed break. I have no complaints here. The room we are in is nice with a beautiful view of the water. The people have been nice everywhere we go. The food has been good but I need to go home.

It's been interesting. It is another world, here in Key West, it is. For once it isn't a matter of money that I want to head home. It is not a matter that there is nothing to do, nothing to see. One could spend a month here and not see and do everything.

At home, I have my good days and my bad days. Here I have my good days and my bad days. I just notice my limitations more here. My bad leg swelled up and my left hand was useless when I needed to use it tonight. We went on a glass bottom boat trip tonight to look at the fish and the coral reef.  We took the last trip of the day so we could see the sunset. I was helped getting on and off the boat but I felt like every eye was on my limping. One of the nice ladies setting out the snacks and drinks worried I was ill, like the lady who came in to change the sheets this morning while everyone else was out going to see the sites downtown.  I was just having one of my down days. I guess it is easier for me to ignore my disabilities when I am home and pretend that I am like everyone else. 

I miss my chair, I miss my bed, I miss my cat, I miss my world.  I always dreamed of going places and doing things. Even if I bought that scooter I wanted to buy to get around on, I don't think I could last as long as the others would want me to in this heat. After so many talks about it, my husband finally realized on this trip how much I could have used one. This is only our third night away. I think when I get home I will stick to reading about other peoples adventures to beautiful places and seeing their fabulous photos of sights I never will see. I will sit in my chair with my feet up in my fan cooled living  room with a cool drink and click on my computer to read on gather about those wonderful far away places. It may not be the same as being there but I can still go there in my mind and touch the sky!