Still here...and trying to catch my...me

Ok let's see, my last entry in my public blogs and accounts, hm..

Can't remember, whatever. It's been months, so here it is the latest, for my public blogs.

So much has happened in so little time. Always with people. Hot, cold, weather, it all my doing or the other guy/gal; whatever. To make long stories short, I went to Vegas, twice, April and May. Both my teams won and lost at the same time. I broke up with my whom I thought was one of my best friends, my Monday pool team got that shaft, even when I tried to fix the on coming horror I predicted with whatever means necessary in the middle of last season ARrrrRrrRr.

I don't play on Tuesday anymore. I play on a new 9ball team on Thursdays, I still play on Monday, though, too some people, I shouldn't play at all, being, no matter how hard I try, there will always be circumstances that will stop the objective for my teams; in some ways it's a complement and others it's a curse. I got betrayed; I took a hard step back and made a giant leap forward, leaving some people behind me.

 

I got upgraded in my league status, I got judged, I got robbed, I got cheated, I made new friends, I got less money in my pocket and more benefits in my life, and I have been up and down with my game development since.

People are supposed to grow out of their character flaws as they get older, not grow into it. Some of my peeps are still in the dark with what I am.

Some know me so well they run away from me, some try and cover it up with twisted truths and half wit lies. My metabolism has sped up, my drinking has slowed down some (not much but some), and I am right back were I started this wild rid about 9 years ago after the death of my little brother. Kinships are inconsistent, they side with you one second and they leave you the next; I am not expecting of, from anyone anymore. Everybody has motive for their actions, their desires, and their preference for quality of life.

We all breath the same air, some, sail to a different kinds of air, some fly and some just stop breathing for moment.

Ya know, when one tries to make an impression for others and succeeds, if they change that impression after they succeed in giving there false impression, People will feel like they have been lied to. The longer one keeps a false impression, the bigger the lie gets.

 

If ya playing pool, just to win, then maybe you shouldn't play pool. Cause no one, always wins at pool, you shouldn't be expecting to lose ether, or to win at that matter. One should just play there best, the results of ones game is and of course the inevitable win or lose. Also, the results can indicate what you put into your efforts for the kind of game you desire. If one invest more energy for complaining about others, and not their own results, and investing less energy in there desired results, then they have an imbalance of temperament.

I know, I am random, and all over the place with this entry, but you can see the visuals in my website over the last few month of who what when how and not so much why, cause I am not so into defaming of anyone's moral fiber, I do not run a news letter, I have a blog, a place for my 5th. Any way, I missing inside, I miss the old days the old ways the road that had an end I didn't see.

I walk a new passageway, with the mist, thick and colorful, but the air is clear and breathable.