I set a lifetime goal

Usually I slide by her office scared to death that I have done something wrong. Well I told my boss how I felt and asked her for some help.  I am temping with a state government agency and all over the office my boss is feared. She is sharp with a edge that if you bump up againist it you get stabbed. She is very determined and aggressive for a female. But I realized that with my attitude I need to experience something like this. I am 21 and know I got a long way to go. I am building my patience level and I now thank the man upstairs for putting me where I am. I need to learn as much discipline as I can. This seems to be his way of testing me. I have been sad but haven't showed one ounce of attitude no matter how much my boss raises her voice. She actually hasn't been that bad. But what I have asked is for her help. I need a permanent job. I don't just want another temporary job. Yes at age 21 I want a career. I have had to many financial problems and feel now that something I must get rid of. I want a good job. I start things and don't finish all the time. I am indecisive and need to just put my foot down. I know that my feet need to be on level ground. I know that . I have set a goal this summer.  I wonder how long will it be before I give up.  I don't even have a job to follow up when this assignment ends on 06/29. I have been searching hard but have been unsuccessful. All I can do is pray that something turns up.