Thursday Evening

Samantha is home and she looks so tan!  she had a most wonderful time and I will take the time to write about it tomorrow.  She was so happy to just take a shower and eat real food.  She was surprised by how expensive everything was, and how much she missed home.  As her mom I was so glad to have her home.

Weatherwise I think we are going to be fine. 

My priest called me and we chatted this evening just before Samantha arrived.  He is leaving out parish and being assinged to a school that is about 40 miles away.  It is an excellent opportunity for a preist and I am so proud of him.  He is young and this was his first assingment.  What a blessing for him.  He saud when he found out about the reassingment he thought of me and what I am going thru and he felt sad.  He is busy getting things ready to go and packing to leave but wanted to check in with me.  I invited him to meet with me any spare moment and he said he would be in touch.

While we talked he told me to read in the bible from the last supper on, to really understand suffering it would be comforting.  I have to tell you I truely enjoy his faith.  He told me that without faith one has nothing and that I was in the hands of God.  I told him all of my health issues before I told anyone else.  I will miss his support and guidance.  Whenever I talk to him I feel ok to cry and feel sad.  I put his cell number in mine and said I needed to get going to pick up Samantha and cried all the way there.  Father Matt has agreed to meet with me before I undergo the radiation just to hold my hand and pray.  I am truely blessed to have one of God's soliders to be there with me for this.

I am stright with God he is my King.  I love my leaders in faith just as there are family and look forward to connecting with anyone who comes in my path.  You the person who is reading this I am better for knowing you and I wish I could touch you all the way you have me.

After listening to Samantha and making the sure Johnathan was home ( Oh Mom it is just a storm), and tucking Casey in ( mom it is summer break), Samantha fell asleep watching tv so I tucked her in bed and slowly made my way to bed.  There is my laptop I shall simply write alittle more. 

The doctor's and I talked again today and of course I would have preferred to not hear what they had to say.  I am scared and truely in pain now.  My doctor said this is tough and only going to get tougher.  I have no choice but to do the Radiatin therapy now. I am tired and truely would like to rest.  It is not easy for me to admit my failures or my weaknesses but I am weak now.  I am strong in my faith and of course found something humorous about tonight.  Samantha and Casey and Johnathan all hugged, when we got home.  I looked at them and thought what work I have done with the help of the Lord.  Then they strarted acting Goofy and I remembered God's sense of humor.

I laughed so hard my eyes watered as she told us about her trip.  Her eyes sparkled and her brothers were eager polite listeners.  We all needed this time a brief time to not worry and relax.

I have figured out three things... I love living, I am sad about losing time and I know my families answer to my interview.  I am lucky!!!  I am planning on featuring Casey tomorrow his was I think his was unique and you might enjoy it.  Do you know your families answers to my ten questions? You should.

I am going to settle in for a spell and read. So Goodnight!  I value you and am so glad you are here!