So my summer seems so busy an hectic.
See I have a seven year old sister, an my mom works, an for the next two weeks my dad is gone to summer camp for the National Guard, an then he works his other job. So I must baby-sit...which my little sister can drive me up a wall, but somehow I still seem to get worried about her an make sure she doesn't do anything to hurt her.
I am doing some volunteer work this summer, an since I got my paperwork in later then everyone else I must work with what they had left. An of course it was working with little kids around my sisters age to about 10 years old. An at first I thought OH NO i can't do that an then now it doesn't seem to bother me to much...I feel I need to.
My best friend an I have been hanging out for the beginning of the summer an there is this older lady who lives up the street from her house an yesterday we were asked to sit with her for a little while, an we were there for almost an hour...an at first I did mind a little cause it was a very nice day...but then I actually enjoyed it very much, an we've decided to go everyday this summer for atleast an hour, an take lemonade or kool-aid an sit with her for an hour or longer, but since I babysit I may not have that much time, but I wanna go an sit with her i love it very much.
An a whole week in June I must go an sit in the hot burning sun, an work with kids, an adults from the church at our VBS program.
An now I have realized that I couldn't do all this on my own, I wouldn't be able to stand it.
But Jesus has laid it upon my heart to do all this, an to help people, an spend the time I could be rotting away in front of this computer screen or watching the same movie over an over again, spending that time with someone else, an helping them.
An now I can't wait till this afternoon, today is the first day of my friend an i going to sit with that elder lady an I can't wait.
But I know I won't be able to do all this on my own...I'm gonna need the Lords strength to make sure I don't pull out my hair...cause see I have a depression problem, an I have so much trouble sleeping at night...God is gonna need to help me to be patient with everyone around me.
So all prayers are appreciated.
An since I have just injured my back i am having some trouble walking...that's why I got up an planted myself in front of the computer until I must get up..which is very soon.
So you don't have to but if you would keep me in your thoughts an prayers, an my friend, an the elder lady we are going to sit with...she is getting very old...an she gets lonely a lot, an she has been sick a lot. So please remember us.
Leslie :)
Enjoy your summer...mine's gonna be a blast
God Bless
rate
email
print
link to this page
Comments: 4
"But Jesus has laid it upon my heart to do all this, an to help people, an spend the time I could be rotting away in front of this computer screen or watching the same movie over an over again, spending that time with someone else, an helping them."
Reading what you wrote in this order should make you see this in another light. Jesus IS already helping you!
Many times, in deppression, people become too inwardly focused, in an unhealthy way. Becomeing involved in helping other people is the perfect solution, as it puts your focus off yourself and on to the needs of others, which is where it should be.
An inward focus can be a good thing when your dealing with depression, but only when it's coupled with competent professional assistence.
I've noticed that many of your letters deal with deppression, and suicide. You should be taking those feelings seriously. You need to reach out to someone close to you, who you can trust, to get help with those feelings and your depression. Everybody needs help at one time or another; you shouldn't be embarassed or ashamed because your needing help at this point. Many teenagers deal with these things, and unfortunately many well meaning family members and freinds can be oblivious to your circumstances. You need to make them hear you!
Sometimes parents are not safe for thier children to confide in, if this is the case for you, go to your pastor, or youth worker, and explain you circumstances to them, and why you feel it is unsafe to tell your parents. Find an adult Christian freind who can help you find the help you need. And don't give up!
If your parents are safe, then you need to tell them what's going on. A good parent will do ANYTHING to help their child. Go to them. If you find it hard to do, try sitting down with your mother and let her read the articles you have posted here on Gather.
I'm reading through all your posts, from first to last, and I want you to know that I can already see that you are a precious young woman. The mere fact that God has brought you into his family shows that you are a daughter of infinite worth to your Heavenly Father. It's not right for you to be in this condition, you shouldn't be this way.
Do something about this. Let those who are close to you know what is going on. Beleive me, they would be devistated if something would happen to you. And those of us who are only begining to know you would suffer a great loss as well. As sisters and brothers in Christ, we all have a GREAT FUTURE together. Do not let the moment keep you from that. Remember too, that nothing can keep you from the love of Christ, not even the feelings you have now.
35 Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36 Just as it is written,
"For Your sake we are being put to death all day long;
We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us.
38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
New American Standard Bible : 1995 Update. LaHabra, CA : The Lockman Foundation, 1995, S. Rom. 8:35-39
Nothing can seperate you from the love of God, not even suicide or thoughts of suicide. You are forever in the love of Christ! But remember, we have a purpose on this earth, one given to us by God Himself. You have already given evidence of this;
"But Jesus has laid it upon my heart to do all this, an to help people, an spend the time I could be rotting away in front of this computer screen or watching the same movie over an over again, spending that time with someone else, an helping them."
Don't short change God's purpose on your life. It will lead to many wonderful things if you let it.
Please dear sister, do something to get help!
I, for one, promise to pray for you, everyday from now on, you will always be of great concern to me, as well as any other brother and sister in Christ who reads of your situation. You can count on that!
I have more to say, but I'll write it when I'm done reading your other posts.