Wish You Were Here...

Despite how well everything has been going in this new place, I've been slipping farther and farther into the dumps. 

The weather is beautiful today, and I have absolutely NO desire to go outside.  It was hard to even get out of bed (if I didn't have to pack Steve's lunch and get his work clothes out of the dryer I probably wouldn't have bothered waking up at all).

I looked up some friends the net, and I see that an old church friend is listed.  I'm hesitant to contact him this way because of the personal nature of my blog (my beliefs and the fact that I curse so much), but I think it would be neat to talk with him and some of my other friends from the church.  Maybe all I need is to feel connected to my past again?  Who knows?

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I lived in another time period or in another country.  I guess I wouldn't really fit in THERE, either. 

Sometimes I sit around wondering why I'm here.  I thought I had found my answer, but now it's too hard to fulfill and I wonder if I made a mistake. 

Is THIS All That Life's About?!

My friend Juli's even been weirding me out lately.  She's been burning sage and cedar and letting the smoke fill the room like incense (She says it's to cleanse the room of "evil spirits?"). 

I don't feel like I "click" with ANYONE at all.  Nothing has changed.  Same S - - T, Different Day...

NO ONE understands me and NO ONE feels how I do about things and NO ONE enjoys the same things that I do.

I've been hesitant to bother with churches at all anymore because the people all seem BRAINWASHED. 

I wish I could find a good home group somewhere, or maybe just a like-minded friend.

Maybe I'm more geared toward a Dis-Like Minded friend?

Currently listening : Hysteria By Def Leppard Release date: By 25 October, 1990