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Monica Kennedy
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November 30, 2005 Please Pray for Me
May 11, 2007 04:27 AM EDT
(Updated: May 11, 2007 02:51 PM EDT)
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On Sunday, my husband, Jeff, told me he was too confused to stay in the marriage and was going to move back to CA to live with his parents. He just left about an hour ago (3:30 AM), driven by our friend, Alan, to Knoxville for a 7 AM flight. I cried like crazy and know I am going to miss him so much. Even though I should not love him and this is probably for the best, I still do love him and saying goodbye is breaking my heart. Please keep me in your prayers as this is a very difficult time for me. Thank you for all for continuing to think and pray for me. It means a lot.
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Comments: 29
bren
I only can imagine your pain right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers right now. Listen closely and use your "wise mind" in which way you want to proceed.
You are wise to realize that you still love him even though you think you shouldn't. Once you accept that you will always feel love for him to some degree, you will feel more peace and be able to settle into what is. Here is prayer for your broken heart, for you, for him and for the future.
You're in our thoughts and prayers. This is an awful time for you - that goes without saying or should have. Any break-up is very, very hard and hurtful, but the ones in which we still feel love for the other person are the worst. Hang in there, if you need to talk, feel free to email me anytime.
Marilyn (and Mark)
((((((((Monica))))))
What do you mean you shouldn't love him? There are no shoulds in matters of the heart, and in fact, the only should I know about love is God's commandment to love! Accept the state of your heart and trust God to hold you up. Know that I love you and will keep you in my prayers.
I'm so sorry. As you know, I'm not a particularly religious person, but I am spiritual. Regardless, my heart goes out to you in these difficult times.
I know this isn't the time for lectures or advice, but I hope that you'll remember that your self worth is determined by more than the actions of one person, even someone that you love.
You have compassion, talent, empathy and so many more wonderful qualities. Take care of Monica well, don't fold the tent and give up on the world, and all things tend to work out.
Your friends are here for you, should you need us.
Eric
God Bless.
I went to a divorce bible study group on Tuesday and it helped me a lot. We discussed forgiveness - more importantly what forgiveness is not. I needed to hear that forgiveness does not mean there is no more pain, nor does it mean there must be reconciliation. I have been forgiving and trying to force reconciliation on something that is far out of my control, and it is okay to simply forgive and move on.
I will do my best to treat Jeff with kindness and compassion, but it is okay to say yes, you are right, it is over. I will learn from this marriage and I know God will help me in the next, hopefully final marriage. I am not foolish enough to think it will all be easy from here, and I know there will still be nights I long for Jeff, but I have come to realize that the real Jeff and the Jeff I thought I was married to and loved are two different people. I love and am grieving the Jeff I thought I was married to, but that person does not exist.
My prayers are truly with you!