Itchy, irritated and impatient

Out of all the pregnancy symptoms I’ve ever had the most annoying is the itching. Now, I’m not talking about regular, dry skin itching. I’m talking about anxiety induced, crawling under the skin, can’t stop scratching itching. I feel like I’m going crazy. From my scalp to the bottoms of my feet – everything itches.

I feel terrible when I scratch my eight-month pregnancy belly because I feel like I’m digging into the skin of my unborn baby, but the itching is so uncontrollable. Now matter how much lotion I slather on, how many times I rub my feet on the floor or try to distract myself with something else; the creepy crawlers are all over me.

I know most of it is anxiety. I’m having problems at home. I’m not ready for the birth of the baby, which may happen anytime within the next eight weeks. I have so much to do and not enough time or energy to do it. I’m worried, sad, anxious… and then I’m happy, which is seconds before I go back to getting worried, sad and anxious.

Just expressing how I feel is causing a massive scratch attack. Add to it the fact that I keep telling one of my toddlers to wait until I’m finished what I’m doing. With my oldest daughter – now 15 – I never repeated myself as much as I do with the two toddlers. What’s the deal with that? It’s the most frustrating thing ever. Well, not ever. The scratching is the most frustrating thing ever.

The scratching has brought me to tears. It has broken out my skin, tore my skin, burned my skin and not once helped me not to itch. I just want it to stop. I want my face to stop itching, my neck, chest, arms, fingers, hands, belly, butt, hips, legs, feet, toes… oh my God make it stop!!