about time

This is a good one to explain my state of mind as of late. Thanks for sharing!

Sue your poem is so real. It's about something happening inside you.
Don't resist change for all the wrong reasons...but learn to forgive. Not forgive but not forget. It must be forgive and forget.

Fred Great advise,
Sue wonderful poem,

Sue wonderful poem and Freds' right. If you do not feel ready to forget you may not be ready to forgive. Complicated but true, but it also sounds like you're ready to move on with hope and that is great news. You go for it Gal!

Very beautiful poem Sue! You really know how to put emotions into words!

Audrey it is not horrid. It is about feeling something instead of being numb

Thom I am in the middle of remembering, so it is complicated to say forget. I have to remember first before I can forget to forgive. Thanks for the comment and the advice.

I hope you have someone to remember with. Oft times rememberances need to be defused as they are recalled...

I love this poem and I say go for it---cry, be with yourself, scream, live, feel, relax, be at peace with yourself when you can. Breaking the silence is a good thing, Sue. It can be hard, but it is ultimately liberating. I have my own thoughts on forgiving and forgetting. Forgiving yourself comes first. Work on that and then you can see how you feel about forgiving those who so badly hurt you. I believe forgiveness comes in its own time, you don't have to force it. As for forgettting, there are some things we never completely forget. And again, I believe forgetting happens in its own time if it is going to happen. Healing from abuse is a process. It has many stages. Sometimes there is order to the process and sometimes not. Being in and going with the process is the best thing you can do for yourself. Sometimes you will fight against it. That is okay, too. It's your process. We can all come along and suggest this, that and the other thing, but you get to choose. You get to choose now, Sue, the way you couldn't when you were a child. And there are a lot more options in life than we grew up believing there were. You are doing great! :)
Hugs!

Sue, I love this and in a nutshell is says let me be me. Good voice and excellent verse.

Thom, I am doing trauma work EMDR with a professional.

*smiles* Sue, I relate...

though I seem to live permanently numb... *sigh*

I am sure there are many that can relate. It is not easy to put yourself out there, but I guess it is my turn. It is time. Big hug Lisa.

Sue, You Ok? Is this how you feel? Either way this is heart felt, raw emotion and so real feeling. A ten for such strong words. A prayer for you if true!!

Hi Charles! Where have you been my friend? It is a part of the way I feel, yes. I do not sit around feeling blue, but I am working really hard on getting through trauma from my past. Thanks for the prayers. I am ok, really. I am just feeling a lot of stuff, good and bad.

So a self-pampering trip to an all inclusive day spa is in the near future? lol. It's always nice to take some "me" time for ourselves; it helps recenter us and get us back on track. Nothing wrong with a little "lookin' out for #1" every now and again. Great poem, and I hope your subject gets the rest they need.

alright dragonsoul. you book the appointment, and i will be there with you. Will they serve drinks with the little umbrellas?

Sue, I respectfully disagree with those who say you must forgive and forget. I only say that, though, because I know you had an abusive first marriage. It's important to remember what you have learned and what to watch out for in the future. It's such a balancing act. The fact that this is where you are at mentally is so painful, but so wonderful. I know you have to come a long way to decide you deserve a voice, you deserve a rest, you deserve to be you!

You go girl!

Thanks jessie! Yes it is about time.

Nice poem.

scream
cry
rest
dream
and tomorrow smile (-;

very nicely written verse.

That's my plan mr. bill. Smiles are great!

*sigh* I can relate
I really enjoyed the poem, I hope letting it out was somewhat catharctic

Hi Sue, I liked your poem. Everyone needs to chill. It would be great to have a place where you could just scream.lol. I have always said it help to vent. Thanks for sharing your feelings

Hi Maria,

Thanks it helps a lot. Thank you for the comment.

Hi Howard,

You are the best! I think a good belly laugh would feel good too.

Very nicely put, Sue. I know the feeling. Sometimes you just have to do what you feel like doing or you will just burst.

Day late and a dollar short, but my suggestion would have been a hot toddy, the fetal position, with warm snuggly covers, and no alarm clock. Sometimes we just have to recoup. I hope you did.

Those are great suggestions Ron. I especially like the idea of ditching the alarm clocks. Those things are evil.