Comfort In This Loss

I can feel the love slipping away.
Rolling off the base of my neck,
and slipping down my spine.
I never thought it would come to this.
After all these years of our battles
and reconciliations we have nothing to show
except a few cut connections and bruised skin.
And in this darkness of your destruction
I am left with my mouth closed and my heart open
trying, struggling to form these feelings
into something other than
“no words” and “no emotions”.
I feel like I have nothing left to give.
Nothing is left that I can say or do for you.
There is nothing else that my poetic heart
can deliver to you as a way to express
what has been destroyed.
Because I saw this coming-----
I felt it under my skin and in my bones.
I could see it in your eyes and
I could feel the walls in your room shaking.

Or maybe that was just the reaction
from your heart jumping out of your chest.

Originally written on July 14, 2005.