Complete Wellness to me is . . .

A balance between mind, body and spirit. Each is considered an aspect of the human psyche and is working in unison with a 'cosmic' flow. This relationship gets the ego motivated towards reaching a certain goal the spirit has already established while the body stays healthy enough to keep up. The particular goal is individual but common; nevertheless equally difficult to reach when one is in love with only their ego. I find it iwas so important to put my ego first in many situations I encounter. To not fuse it, keep it isolated from a spiritual grounding-- being stubborn !-- with the rest of my time on Mother Earth, I sensed a feeling of being cheated out of many alternative opportunities.

I dislike the word 'sell-out' and conforming is a disease society delivers on a silver platter, with conditions, so I use the term "experimenting with dangerous deliberation". It means I have to tolerate some different reactions my body might have to certain roots complementing their dangerous synthetic constituents, but if misused, also dangerous. 

I realize I needed much more solid strength both emotionally and psychologically to physically provide me with 'perseverance', in this recipe for successful fruition of becoming 'Whole'. In joining several online support groups for a variety of issues i.e, gynecological dysfunctions, making the world a better place, equality for women, personal spiritual transformation from physical or emotional crisis, and especially alternative measures to making this cyst functional and not life threatening--all of which help me in my own healing agenda.

This step-by-step process must require [re]-evaluation of my current worldview; from what can I extract that will truly benefit my determination to seeing things through. My progress, 49 days into adding Wild Yam, a natural Stress reducer full of B6 and B12 and lavendar aromatherapy, I realize the natural way does take so much more time.  In a world of quick-fixes and no tolerance for the pain threshold, OTC drugs make a ton of money--but not off me cause I found the body builds up a resistance and more and more is needed and soon I am needing something stronger. I am not willing to sweat through darvon sleep/coma-induced nights again because I did not apply my meditation techniques fast enough !

Erica Hidvegi 4-30-06 originally Copyright ©2006, edited 2/11/07 Copyright ©2007